im drunk.....i long to have the life i used to live.
before puberty
before women
before alcohol
before drugs
before education
before driving
before PAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAATRIES!
before.....facebook
....back in the day when big wheels and playing in the dirt was
the thing to do as a 6 year old boy
back when cooties were the only
reason to stay away from girls (HAHAHAHAHA)
Dan "My Blaze <3" Calm - 13 years, 10 months, 19 days ago

At a party where words seem like bullets
I try to stay bulletproof, taking hit
after hit in the chest without falling
Though, I fear that this vest can only
take so much; only so many hits
before it is useless against your attacks
No matter where I turn, where I
hide, or where I run...
sights are always set on me.
It may be friendly fire or blind fire,
my defenses dwindle with every
relentless assualt...
Day or night
Direct or indirect
Never the less, I must force
myself to survive
I will push on, endure,
till my time comes to pull the trigger.
Dan "My Blaze <3" Calm - 14 years, 8 months, 12 days ago

The other day I was sitting in my truck listening to music just depressed as shit. I guess this is because over the last six months my life has taken a lot out of me. My friends kind of know what's going on, but I've forced myself to not allow them to know the full extent of it. It mostly involves money and what my future holds for me. The lack of money hinders me from getting gas to drive out to see any and all of my friends. More importantly it prevents me from taking part in one of the last few activities that does not cost more that $2 to part take in, disc golf. Since I started to play disc golf, its been the only joy besides being around the people that I feel safe with.



The last time I can honestly say I was happy and stress free was back in September '09. I took a group of my friends up to my cabin for a weekend. The drive up there was smooth as well as fun with this girl Sydney riding with me. Once we all got up there, we started to get things set up for the party but if you know my friends and I, we party anytime of the day. Now, I'm trying to keep this classy, but there is no other way to say this. By 9pm we were all totally hammered and by midnight I was blacked out. Without calling anyone out, MOST OF US made at least one mistake that night. Mine being allowing myself to black out instead of trying to pursue my interest in the lovely Sydney. The one time I needed to be able to pick up on hints, I'm stumbling around the cabin off in my own world. After I got home, I realized how bad I screwed up. If only I knew how to make things completely right with her...



Where have the times gone? The times when asking a girl out was simple. If she said "yes," you take her out to dinner and a movie. Though, in those times the date would cost a grand total of around $20 if that. Now, you ask a girl out and she plays hard to get or just is not that into you. By chance she says yes, your left with a tough decision. Do you go out to dinner or to a movie, because both of them will probably cost around $20 EACH. Yet I sit here still, with a desire to be hers as she would be mine...



Looking forward, I can see a glimpse of joy in my future, with her I do not know, but it will not come till June(keep hounding me about the event till I tell you). Well actually, last night my friends did something for me that was really cool. **To understand us, I guess you should know that we tend to hang out in the San Gabriel riverbed behind El Dorado park when there are no parties on the weekends.** They pretty much surprised me by parking outside of my house wanting to go walk around Seal Beach just so we could all hang out. We went and crashed in on my brother and his wife so one of my buddies could use the bathroom then we were on our way. Ending the night, we all had a cigarette in the bed of my truck while trying to make plans for the week to come. Which the plans are not looking to hopeful...



So far it seems like I won't have to worry about stressing out my friends because they're picking up on my troubles fairly easily. As for women, when will I come across that modern day type of girl that will take charge once in awhile. The type that is not afraid to tell a man straight up if she is interested in him or not. I mean I can handle this game of cat and mouse, but I have a greater chance of screwing things up like last time. I'll be the first to say that I do not always pick up on how a girl is feeling. Let's get personal for a second, I hope you've picked up on who I am really into at this point. When I say "you," I am talking directly at THE girl...



Well, I'm sitting here, wondering where the time has gone and what lies ahead for me when I realize I kind of lost track of mind for this blog. Though, with every post I see that it kind of is my style of blogging. And with every post, I look forward to the feedback from you, the reader, even though it rarely comes. If you think I'm full of shit, tell me straight up......





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Dan "My Blaze <3" Calm - 14 years, 11 months, 25 days ago

LOL saw this one on a profile and I can't help myself but post it... it's just crazy enough to be on my profile :P

I want your number, I don't care who you are. I may Call

I bet you won't give it to me.
Name:___________________
Number:___________________
Best time to call:___________________

I dare you to copy and paste this and see how many numbers you get!!!!
Dan "My Blaze <3" Calm - 14 years, 12 months, 1 day ago

Copy and reply to me in a private message, then post it on your profile to see the responses you get. Complete honesty is OK. It's private.

1.Your Name:
2.Age:
3.Favorite position:
4.Do you think I'm cute?
5.Would you have sex with me?
6.Lights on or off?
7.Would you have to be drunk?
8.Would you take a shower with me?
9.Have you ever thought about having sex with me?
10.Would you leave after or stay the night?
11.Do you like cuddling afterwards?
12.where would you want us to be?
13.Have sex on the first date?
14.Would you kiss me during sex?
15.Do you think I would be good in bed?
16.Would you use me as a booty call?
17.Can I use you as a booty call?
18.Can we take pictures of the act?
19.How long would we have sex?
20.Would you tell your friends about me?

1 chance.
1 honest answer.
Thats all you get.
You get to ask me 1 question. (TO MY INBOX)
Any question, anything, no matter how crazy it is.
No catch.
Just between me and you.
No one else will ever know.
But I dare you to repost this.
And see what people ask you....

Dan "My Blaze <3" Calm - 15 years, 1 day ago