Well hello everyone....sory I haven't written in a hile, just trying to survive here. Work is starting to slow down so I had to pick up part time work as a carpenter. The kids are growing like you wouldn't believe and the eldest is sooooo bloody smart. I am trying to prepare for the festive season but can't really get in the mood. The ex gets them for the holday so our Christmas will be the new year I'd imagine. It's hard to be away from them as much as I am but I am hopeful that things will get sunnier. Well enough rambling for now. Later
Andrw Goldsworthy "Andrew" Daring - 15 years, 12 months, 2 days ago

Well, two weeks have passed and I have the kids again. One can't even fathom how much a father can miss them when they are only 3 hours away. It seems like nothing else really matters when I know I can have them, I mean I have friends that invited me to do some pretty important things this weekend and there was not even an ounce of hesitation to say no...I am glad that the people that choose to be around me are inviting me, but I am even more grateful that they understand that I have my kids and thats it....We got back to Provost at 11 o'clock on Friday, and got up the next morning, I made my "famous" bacon and eggs, Taryn and Ang came over with their kids and we all got ready and went to the lake....before we knew it it was 4:30 and we got ready and came back home. The kids and I walked around town, took them home and now they are sleeping, all I can do is watch in amazement at how much I adore them. : )
Andrw Goldsworthy "Andrew" Daring - 16 years, 4 months, 10 days ago

Okay, finally some headway in my life. I had my kids this past weekend and it was great. I loved every second of it. The time blew by so fast though that it seems like I was just picking them up and I had to drop them off again. I had to drive 6 hours round trip to get them and but that doesn't even matter. All that matters is that they were ecstatic to see me as was I to see them. The first night I couldn't even sleep, I kept checking on them in their sleep. I missed them before I dropped them off. 2 more weeks and I can see them again. Can't wait
Andrw Goldsworthy "Andrew" Daring - 16 years, 4 months, 23 days ago

I wish I knew how to describe the way I feel. How I could understand what is going on in my brain. I really think that I would be better off away from everyone, I think I need to distace myself from even my closest friends, and then just disappear. to be gone. free of all things that make life extremely hard. I know I have patience and that I can endure a lot of shit. But when does it start to get better? Does it even get any better? Or does something else just fill the void? I really want to know. I need to feel-not important, but-wanted, as a friend, lover, confidant. But at the same time, I need this time to find out who I really am now. I've changed in more ways than one, you just can't go thru an ordeal like this and say that you are the same as you always were. I am gald no one reads this, because this is a good way to vent.
Andrw Goldsworthy "Andrew" Daring - 16 years, 5 months, 3 days ago

Life is a winding road and after a while you fall asleep because it is neverending. when you awaken, your world is upside-down. You have to crawl your ass outta the wreck and get back on the road. That's where I am right now, crawling outta the wreck walking the bumpy trail to the highway.
Andrw Goldsworthy "Andrew" Daring - 16 years, 5 months, 15 days ago