The reason (dedicated for people I love)

Reason. What is “reason” ?

The definition “reason”: a rational motive for a belief or action; an explanation of the cause of some phenomenon.

Reason may seem like an easy word to say. We reason all the time. The reason we go to theme park. The reason we go to cinemas. The reason we shop. The reason we need a break. The reason that we need to go on holiday. The reason why we forget our dates? The reason why we skipped our meals. The reason why we stick to our routines. We always have reason to everything we’ve decided. If there is decicion making involved, there will be reasons. Just like light and shadow.

We reason with people. To find out about things. But do we ever reason with ourselves? the reason of living, the reason of love, the reason of rejection the reason of being alone, the reason of disbelief just the reason of everything. I keep thinking the only one reason why we doing what we are doing. The motion of activities. The routine that we do everyday so we believe that we are doing something with our life. I have no idea why all of the sudden I keep thinking the word reason. The ideal weight that we have to carry so we can survive in the society. The reason of existence the reason that we are standing on the ground until now. What are we believing? So we always have the reason to live? Happiness? Glory? Power? Or just love? So ask yourself what is ur reason?

I keep asking myself the reason why I am here. Just the reason why am I spinning around out of control. The reason why I cant ask for help. The reason why I keep pushing people away. The reason why the moment I wake up I know that I will get nothing but just rejection. The reason why I keep holding in all the feelings. The reason… im not good with asking. Im not good with good words. Im not good with attention. Im not good with company.

The reason why I cant ask for help is becuz I never have them in my life. The reason why I keep pushing people away is because I hurt people around me that is why I prefer to be left alone. I can never trust myself to trust others. the reason why I know that I will get nothing but rejection is because of who I am. I stop hoping other people to try and open their heart because I know I will just fall to disappointment. The reason why I keep holding in all the feelings is because I refused to be seen like a weak individual. I refused to confide so I can avoid all the betrayal that I might get. The reason why im not good with asking is because I never ask, I give. The reason why im not good with words is because I never know how to comfort people. I never ask anyone to comfort me. The reason Im not good with attention is because I never know how to react to it.
I may not seem like a great individual in ur eyes. I may not a person that u want me to be but I show my affection to u in different ways that u may never understand or physically seen. I never ask for ur help because I want u to know that u can count on me and im strong enough for u to rely on. I never trust others is because Im scared that I would hurt u. I stop hoping people to open their heart is because I only need yours. I keep all my feelings so I can put ur feelings above mine. I only know how to give because I never need to ask anything more. You are perfect through my eyes. I can never able to comfort you through words but I act on it. Every little thing that I can do and may not seem like a lot but I hope it helps than just comfort words.

I don’t know how to tell my appreciation. Im sorry. But amongst other people in the world I appreciate you the most. And carved ever so deeply in my heart. I have build a huge wall in between others and myself for years and im not sure how to break down the wall that I’ve built. im sorry…

Unknown Emo - 16 years, 7 months, 9 days ago

"i do whatever i like and i like whatever i do"
"go ahead, try and surprise me"
"idealism? is just what i called limit"
"why do u think that we cant create a solution?"
"i believe in myself because i will never believe in others"
"dont hope anything from me, cuz i can never give what u want"
"love? hmmm i prefer romance"
"i never hope anything from anyone..."
"blue margarita please"
"i love the moon, it still shine so bright even if by nature its so dark"
"milk is the only addiction"
"you can have all the fame... but i will be the one who design your fame"
"i dont regret, i try"
"her eyes is amazingly hypnotic"
"one person to look up to? experiences"
"why stick to routine? its boring"
"people who dont believe in possibilities are people dont believe in better solutions"
"believe it! i can!"
"scream all you want, yell all u can, i will still do it"
"u see me smiling? thats me when i said i win"
"i hate losing, people turn against each other when they lose"
"only one person, that deserves all my feelings and my affection"
"yeah exactly... i want that"





Unknown Emo - 16 years, 7 months, 27 days ago

I’ve thought about one thing; it’s not a bad thing
To always insist on myself, the meaning of love
Like wind with no reasons lightly fly away
Who love who? There’s no absolute right or wrong
It doesn’t matter the time; telling how hard it is for us to be together

I’m not brave to prove; Love You, these two words
It’s not restraining myself, I’m not being sarcastic too
Other people are all saying that I’m actually very ignorant
This kind of love has been recognized is very sarcastic
I don’t want to obey it, I’m still thinking about that matter

If you can no longer control to think me once every day
If you become more honest because of me
If you watch the movies I watch, listen to the CD that I love listening to
If you can take me to travel

If you decided to follow your feelings; to be brave just this once for love
If you say that we have each other
If you can start believe this feeling of love, this feeling of being in love
If you can give me the matter of if

If you decided to follow your feelings; to be brave just this once for love
If you say that we have each other
If you can start believe this feeling of love, this feeling of being in love
I only want one matter of if from you; I will dash ahead and love you with out worrying about my being hurt

Unknown Emo - 16 years, 7 months, 27 days ago

Unknown Emo - 16 years, 7 months, 27 days ago

the story its finally over... im closing the story book between us... its over...
Unknown Emo - 16 years, 9 months, 10 days ago