Well in 5 weeks time I go in to hospital for the final stage of my journey. I will come home a new woman, though not looking forward to the pain I will have to endure for a few weeks, I am looking forward to the completion of this part of my Life and to start a new and happier life in 2009.
Unknown "beautiful" Adventurous - 15 years, 11 months, 12 days ago

I spent Friday night baby sitting a friends 4 month old little girl. She was great, I seemed to do the right things at the right time to keep her settled. She kept giving me the most beautiful smiles. Her mum collected her midday on Saturday.
It was a fantastic experience, the trouble is it has left me empty. Yes I've been broody. Also knowing that I will never be able to experience the joy of child birth, to hold my own child in my arms and all those things so many woman take for granted.
It's times like this that the fact that I will never truely be a real/complete woman, something a friend keeps pointing out when we talk about womans problems. What she will never understand is that I would happily suffer pain, discomfort and the inconvenience of 'womans problems' just for the right to be a complete, "real" woman.

Holding a child in your arms knowing they depend on you for all their needs, the look, the smile, the fake cry,.....the real cry, your heart melts. Children are a gift not a right, I wish I was given the chance to recieve that gift.
My heart goes out to those women in this world who due to illness, accident or other miss fortune are unable to bare children.
enough said
Unknown "beautiful" Adventurous - 16 years, 8 months, 5 days ago

It took a long time to find myself, I had a happy childhood, but always felt there was something wrong or missing. In my late teens early 20's I experimented with being a transvestite, it felt great, liberating, more me than I ever did, but it was only temporary.

In 1996 I was diagnosed Transexual or as I prefer Transgender, but it took a long time to accept it. In fact 9 years. I have always been one to work things out for myself, never liked relying on other people, which in retrospect was wrong.

It turned out that it was people around me, my friends, that were instumental in helping me to accept who I am. And I've never looked back!!

In conclusion
We all have a path to find through our lives, we can't do it on our own (trust me I've tried), but we also can't follow someone else's path. There are people around you who can help to guide you, or at least know someone who can help. Don't be afraid to ask for help.
Unknown "beautiful" Adventurous - 16 years, 8 months, 17 days ago