I spent Friday night baby sitting a friends 4 month old little girl. She was great, I seemed to do the right things at the right time to keep her settled. She kept giving me the most beautiful smiles. Her mum collected her midday on Saturday.
It was a fantastic experience, the trouble is it has left me empty. Yes I've been broody. Also knowing that I will never be able to experience the joy of child birth, to hold my own child in my arms and all those things so many woman take for granted.
It's times like this that the fact that I will never truely be a real/complete woman, something a friend keeps pointing out when we talk about womans problems. What she will never understand is that I would happily suffer pain, discomfort and the inconvenience of 'womans problems' just for the right to be a complete, "real" woman.
Holding a child in your arms knowing they depend on you for all their needs, the look, the smile, the fake cry,.....the real cry, your heart melts. Children are a gift not a right, I wish I was given the chance to recieve that gift.
My heart goes out to those women in this world who due to illness, accident or other miss fortune are unable to bare children.
enough said
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- 16 years, 8 months, 18 days ago