Journey to Self Love

I'm not sure where I stand most days
Then there are days where I know exactly
What I stand for because the Heart rules the mind.

But the mind is weak but the heart can be too
If broken is a way of life I'm sure I've mastered it
To the point shattered is a way of life.

Yet they say self love is a way back from Broken
But how do you self love when what you see in the mirror
Makes you look away because it's hard to see

The reality is it's hard to face your true self it's
Easier to believe the lies you've told yourself for years
Then it is to see what others apparently see in you

But with a step in the opposite direction just one small
Change a conversation with someone who doesn't know the old
you just the person you're willing to let show to let down a guard or two

Who makes you question all those lies you've heard all of
Your life from your own brain. Who tells you it's okay to let
Even a little bit of light in you just need to take that step

The road to self love isn't easy and comes with tears and
Sometimes more questions then answers but you might just learn
That the journey to answers was the road you needed to go down

Written by Joni White

January 12, 202


Joni E White "White Moon Light" Uncertain - 11 hours ago

STILL HERE

Sometimes it ain't the war that closes in
It's the fact that you stand alone. When
there's no hand offered to save
just darkness that surrounds you

When you are forever searching for that
little bit of light. That piece that tells you to
hold on for one more day because it
mighten hurt so bad.

That glimmer of a rainbow saying it's not
going to rain forever. You just have to keep
going despite the pain you feel that
pulls you under like you're going to drown.

Forever really isn't all that long is it? Broken
but not dead yet. One foot in front of the
other, head down so no one sees the tears
just one more breath to say I'm still here.

BY Joni White September 19/25
Joni E White "White Moon Light" Uncertain - 3 months, 23 days ago

It's been so long since I've been active here and I probably wouldn't be if it weren't for some advice from someone I try to listen too. The last few years have been an ongoing roller coaster one that's not always been fun. So this is me trying to find at least some part of the person who I used to be.
Joni E White "White Moon Light" Uncertain - 4 months, 8 days ago

well tonight is a stray from the past been a long time since i've been back here...yeah i've missed it though never been much of an attraction for people to my page anyway that i didn't mind and well still don't.. but guess i wanted to take a glimpse of what i use to be like not so long ago.. I haven't changed much over the last while but i've kinda lost a part of myself that i guess i'm still looking for... this place hold a part of that missing piece but frankly can't say i'll ever really feel whole.. just a little rant i guess you'd call this all in all .. wish the words would come back.. J
Joni E White "White Moon Light" Uncertain - 11 years, 9 months, 9 days ago

Silently

how is it when someone leaves you
they are never really gone
some part of you quietly holds on

be it just a memory or a picture
you hold dear be it the way the wind blows
or in your heart you hear

a faint whisper of that someone
you can't touch, you can't talk to
but still you hurt so much

be it the tears of others who suddenly
bring you to tears or the hurt of someone else
you see reflected in a mirror

how is it something so unrelated
can cause you so much pain
to make you question all the things you gain

For all those that have lost someone
for all of those that still mourn
know that someone else is there to silently help you hold on

August 29, 2011

~ Joni E. White~
Joni E White "White Moon Light" Uncertain - 14 years, 4 months, 20 days ago