Like as the waves make towards the pebbled shore,
So do our minutes hasten to their end;
Each changing place with that which goes before,
In sequent toil all forwards do contend.
Nativity, once in the main of light,
Crawls to maturity, wherewith being crown'd,
Crooked eclipses 'gainst his glory fight,
And Time that gave doth now his gift confound.
Time doth transfix the flourish set on youth
And delves the parallels in beauty's brow,
Feeds on the rarities of nature's truth,
And nothing stands but for his scythe to mow:
And yet to times in hope, my verse shall stand
Praising thy worth, despite his cruel hand.


- William Shakespeare, Sonnet 60.
Jennifer Lim "→ baby" Lonely - 16 years, 14 days ago

I'm kinda back in Human Pets... *Kinda*. As in I'm not just logging in to get dosh and that's it.

Just wanna say I've missed you guys =] <3
Jennifer Lim "→ baby" Lonely - 16 years, 3 months, 29 days ago

*Takes a deep breath*

Sorry, I think I needed that rant earlier on. I'm honestly under too much stress from work and friends and family. LIFE, basically. I'm feeling better now.

I just hope I don't slip back into depression.
Jennifer Lim "→ baby" Lonely - 16 years, 7 months, 1 day ago

Do I look or sound like I'm coping well?!

Why would one like a person so much if it weren't for their personality which shines out? A person can be deadly gorgeous but still snubbed by me if her personality is HORRIBLE. Therefore, how do you think I feel when THE WOMAN I'VE BEEN CHATTING WITH, MY BABY, IS DEAD?

Do you know how it effin' feels when you get offloaded with a shitload of news instead of slowly discovering? I'm not trying to blame anyone here but PLEASE UNDERSTAND HOW I FEEL. HOW WORSE QI WOULD BE.

I mean, suddenly you get told your baby is not coming, she's in a coma due to a car accident, then you get told that her condition is not looking good, then suddenly you get told she's a scam, AND THEN you get told she has passed away on 24/04/2008. She's dead she's dead she's dead she's dead she's dead she's dead she's dead.

DO YOU KNOW HOW I FUCKING FEEL?!

NO, I AM NOT COPING WELL.

Couple that with all the possible deceptions and blind faith that we've just twisted the truth too much and also the heartaching undeniable truth that she had to hide behind another person's pictures(Why, baby? There was no need to, at all) and weave an entire network of lies into it, my world is officially orbiting out of control.

Oh what a tangled web we weave... I know I should let this affect me so much, I feel like slapping myself for getting so emotional over someone over the Internet, but apparently I'm too late to do anything about it.

Dear friends, don't worry excessively over me, I will be okay, just not now.

Not now.
Jennifer Lim "→ baby" Lonely - 16 years, 7 months, 1 day ago

Oh heavenly Father,
The giver of life and every good gift,
Please accept my humble plea for help.
Although I have sinned against you many times,
Please do not hold it against me.
Forgive me please and show me the right way to walk.

My heavenly Father please console me in this moment of distress.
Make my heart rejoice and give me a reason to carry on.
I am at my lowest point and in desperate need of your caring arm.
Please offer me your shoulder to lean on.
If it is your will let me make it through the night.
May I awake in a cheerful mood.

Do not forsake me heavenly Father.
In Jesus name I approach you. Amen.

Jennifer Lim "→ baby" Lonely - 16 years, 7 months, 6 days ago