for a lost friend-your still my beautiful shade of grey
snuffed,replaced by some thoughtless actions and an over eagarness to please. Look at this creature left,like a dog so obediant,needy,its pathetic.
The bite in her bark is gone.
this world is her master now.
she awakes now only for them,for them to play games with her when they want.
she'll do all the tricks for their amusement and their approval.
she'll role over and lie at their feet,her every breath,every thought is for them.
she has lost ownership of herself.

look into her eyes you'll see it.
She longs for freedom,shes lost,the feeling is gone,all she has is despiration for approval and she wants protection from lonelyness.
but i know,even though she feels like she has abandoned her mind and soul for a worldly existance,she'll find herself again on this road.
at the edge of her sanity,at the end of this bitter road-her soul is waiting.
the real her is there screaming in pain from being neglected so long.
this is the pain she works for,that sucks her breath,crawls through her chest,into her soul,it is her soul calling out to her to come back home.
she has to follow this pain to find her way back home,to her soul.
even if its years of stumbling in the dark,she will stumble on what she has lost. in this world of black and white-she'll find her beautiful shade of grey.

Unknown "NOT FOR SALE" Neglected - 16 years, 3 months, 4 days ago

If you could follow me on the wings of the wind
to worlds on the otherside of the moon
you would find my foot prints in the milkyway
and see my tent standing between the stars

because I am still so young and the world is old
its shadow falls through space.
Take ny hand now,because the night gets cold
and why wouldwe delay?

If you could follow me until everything perished
and never ever fearseperation
so we could learn to understand life,
a moment to be happy

But we are still so young and the world so old
and in front of us everybody fades,
Take my hand now,because the night is cold
it might be the last time
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# Posted on Friday, 25 January 2008 at 17:55
Taking a look though the eyes of the betrayer: ---Because you cared----
I relied on you once. I thought you were strong,you were invincible.I thought you could save me frommy pathetic little world I live in.It's a world that I thought you saw was doomed,how was I to know you wanted to be a part of it.I wanted to tell you,you were a fool but i guess you already know that now.

Your love blinded you and it took you to pieces.My bitter ,broken heart ruined your smile,stripped you of your pride and self-worth. the trust you had in me I manipulated.I crippled you;I control you because you are my obsession.Your fragile heart is crushed under my foot, you are nothing of what you were,you are no more than a weeping broken heap of something that once was.

I may not be sure if I even love you but I do know I own you and that all I need.If you dare try to get up,I'll kick you down again.You'll never be able to put yourself together because I'll tear you to pieces.You are here with me in this world now and I'm afraid to be left here alone again.I need you here with me,I'm only sorry that we both have to pay for my wrongsand it will kill us both.I have destroyed us and left us with nothing but shame and guilt.You have no one now but me,I never had anyone but you.

We are drained of the life we once shared and the zest for life is lost. Pain is all we know now;it's the only familiar comfort that's left.My disappointment in you is your only achievement you are left with. All because you believed in me,because you trusted me.
All because you cared.

Unknown "NOT FOR SALE" Neglected - 16 years, 3 months, 4 days ago

Taking a look though the eyes of the betrayer: ---Because you cared----
I relied on you once. I thought you were strong,you were invincible.I thought you could save me frommy pathetic little world I live in.It's a world that I thought you saw was doomed,how was I to know you wanted to be a part of it.I wanted to tell you,you were a fool but i guess you already know that now.

Your love blinded you and it took you to pieces.My bitter ,broken heart ruined your smile,stripped you of your pride and self-worth. the trust you had in me I manipulated.I crippled you;I control you because you are my obsession.Your fragile heart is crushed under my foot, you are nothing of what you were,you are no more than a weeping broken heap of something that once was.

I may not be sure if I even love you but I do know I own you and that all I need.If you dare try to get up,I'll kick you down again.You'll never be able to put yourself together because I'll tear you to pieces.You are here with me in this world now and I'm afraid to be left here alone again.I need you here with me,I'm only sorry that we both have to pay for my wrongsand it will kill us both.I have destroyed us and left us with nothing but shame and guilt.You have no one now but me,I never had anyone but you.

We are drained of the life we once shared and the zest for life is lost. Pain is all we know now;it's the only familiar comfort that's left.My disappointment in you is your only achievement you are left with. All because you believed in me,because you trusted me.
All because you cared.

Unknown "NOT FOR SALE" Neglected - 16 years, 3 months, 4 days ago

Set yourself free from anything that might hinder you in becoming the person you want to be. Free yourself from the uncertainties about your abilities or the worth of your dreams, from the fears that you may not be able to achieve them or that they won't be what you wanted.

Set yourself free from the past. The good things from yesterday are still yours in memory; the things you want to forget you will, for tomorrow is only a sunrise away. Free yourself from regret or guilt, and promise to live this day as fully as you can.

Set yourself free from the expectations of others, and never feel guilty or embarrassed if you do not live up to their standards. You are most important to yourself; live by what you feel is best and right for you. Others will come to respect your integrity and honesty.

Set yourself free to simply be yourself, and you will soar higher than you've ever dreamed.

Unknown "NOT FOR SALE" Neglected - 16 years, 3 months, 17 days ago

Once upon a time, a small bird named Tasoo lived in a vast jungle. One hot summer day, a terrible wildfire erupted and the flames devoured many trees and animals living in the jungle. Other birds flew high into the sky and far away to safety, but Tasoo couldn't bear to leave her precious jungle home to burn. Day and night, she flew with all her might back and forth to the river, filling her tiny beak with water to drop on the raging fires. Tasoo's rare heart of courage and unshakable determination moved the heavenly gods to shed tears, and a great rain poured down upon the jungle, extinguishing the flames. And so it is that even the smallest actions of a determined spirit can change the world.

Unknown "NOT FOR SALE" Neglected - 16 years, 3 months, 17 days ago