Random Pondering, because i need/want to type, and I need to talk to myself where I can see it. If someone else reads this, good for you, get a job, and learn from mistakes you find in here. Seems selfish to want someone to read your tales and care about your life. After all, why does it matter in the end? Wasn't there a time when people's friend groups were much smaller? What about those "dark times" before the advent of the internet? no one read "tales" or cared about "profiles". Maybe they died earlier from the various causes of death that modern day people suggest. Why rant like this? it just seems life isn't like it used to be, and I for one feel very misplaced 90% if the time. the other 10% I'm dreaming. ah well.
Unknown "Ben-jammin" Serene - 16 years, 2 months, 19 days ago

I'm bored and haven't written a tale in a while, and like it matters because no one really reads these anyway. While my outlook on love hasn't improved at all, I've recently been doing a lot of thinking on grace and redemption. Redemption isn't to be confused with self-redemption that I have mentioned earlier. Anyway, If you actually do read these and want to prove it, People Don't Need To See Purple Aardvarks. Back to what I was saying, I'm working on some thesis' and different things on that subject, but don't expect it too soon. There's a lot going on in life right now, and I'm trying to navigate this vessel through these uncharted waters.
Unknown "Ben-jammin" Serene - 16 years, 3 months, 18 days ago

Last one for tonight, and hopefully the last on this dreadful topic of "love":
They say to have loved
and lost
is better than to have never loved
at all
Is this true? Can this be-
but why?
When you have never loved, you've
never lost
And if you've loved and lost, you've
never won
We always seek what we've lost,
Never finding
Those who haven't lost don't seek, ignorance
is bliss
they don't know what they are truly
with out
So then is to have loved
and lost
better than to have never loved
at all?
Unknown "Ben-jammin" Serene - 16 years, 7 months, 18 days ago

While looking for the previous work, I ran across another small thesis on love:
Love is a Rose
Beauty among the thorns
it grows and then it blooms
and sometimes
fades and dies
Unknown "Ben-jammin" Serene - 16 years, 7 months, 18 days ago

Finally, the promised work.

Wraith of redemption
looking to redeem himself from
that which he lost
he knows it is fruitless
but he continues his quest
his only feeling now
the feeling of hopelessness
Forever in the state of loss
he has nothing left
wishing he could die
jump off that cliff
somehow something holds him
he knows what it is
the penance he must pay
for losing what was his
Unknown "Ben-jammin" Serene - 16 years, 7 months, 18 days ago