i know know everything. I'm sorry. It seems all i do is mess things up now. i guess I'll leave you be.

Did you break up with me and just are afraid to tell me? Normally I wouldn't ask but, even though i keep saying over and over that you need to talk to me. You still keep your distance. Absence doesn't make my heart grow fonder and this is still effecting my school work, my life outside of you, and my personal feelings about self. If you could, please wake up? I can't carry our relationship on my own. That's not a relationship, that's obsession.

I'll call Sunday. It will be decided then. :(

I want you to suceed. I want you to do well.

You have been nourished with catmilk.

Lost two more of my vassals today. I gained only one. I tried to return them both but it seems the lords are to well defended. Sigh. i'm a Baron now. I served under you for 1 hour before a Viscount snatched me up. I don't have the power to rebel against someone with 300 power so,.. i guess i serve him now.

I know the formulas now and realize it completely stacked against me. Sigh. I was having fun for about an hour or so. Oh well.

Today sucks. Yep. I was looking for something to do all day. I needed entertainment and found nothing. I wanted everything to be alright and suspect that everything hasn't gone according to plan. Sigh...

I need a hug but, want you to feel I'm OK. I frustrated at myself today because I fail at everything I've tried. Maybe I should just hold on and wait until tommorrow.

Usuall y on days like today, I say,"Looks like this one is a wash."

You have been given meow-meow-meow mix.

I know you. Right now your thinking I'm mad at you. Punishing you for something because I'm not communicating to you directly.

I have reasons to ignore you this season that aren't anger. I want to give Jared time to feel his family is stable. I want you to talk to him, love him, and make it a tradition every year. It will be important to give stability and regularity to Jetoma. I should know.

Also,.. I've reduced your communication meathods because if you want to talk to me, I have a phone, you can e-mail me, and you can text me. Usually people only require one of these methods to communicate. I understand ou want to play with me but, this is family time please don't take away from that by talking to me.

I'm not your family, yet. I'm still not convinced you really want me. I know you aren't either so, do us both a favor and stop lying to yourself.