Slowly dieing heart laine bare. strew acroos the desert of my life. She took me and she broke me left me there. only to die, slowly, bleeding heart lane bare.
Unknown "Sunshine" Bold - 16 years, 1 month, 16 days ago

dust
the ground is brown and sun bleached. everything is dead or dying. And i thirst, i thirst so strongly. All i can think of is lying down on the dry cracked earth and just letting go. closing my eyes and allowing my mind slip away into darkness. A hot breeze pools around me and it carries stench of death. How can i carry on. My mind slips back to times where i drank and i loved. I miss it so much. But i brought myself into this desert. And i cannot go back. she will no longer help me. She cannot do it. I must find my way on my own. Or slowly fall into the hot dry desert sand and decay to dust.

Unknown "Sunshine" Bold - 16 years, 3 months, 10 days ago

one last time

dance with me in the starlight. kiss me one last time in the rain. let me feel the warmth of your breath apon my neck. let me kiss away your tears. do not think of yesterday or days to come. just get lost in the moment with me. let me lose myself in you. Become lost in me one last time. If only for a moment. love me again. let me love you with the love i so passionetly need to show you. dance with me in the starlight. in the startlight of your eyes. kiss me one last time with the thunderstorm of your love. kiss me. kiss me oh just kiss me.


Unknown "Sunshine" Bold - 16 years, 3 months, 10 days ago

so this is goodbye


So this is how goodbye feels. i never thought it would feel like this. i never thought it would ever end. i know it was hard. And i know so many tears were shead. And i know now that your love for me is dead. you were my frist kiss, you were my first best friend. i wanted to be with you untill the very end. but now that time has gone. But i would never take the time i spent with you back. i will never stop loving you. i must say goodbye but you know i don't want to. you have my heart and i don't know how to get it back. so this is goodbye. i know i'm not able to say goodbye as quick as you would like me to. But this is hard for me love. And i am trying i am trying to do it for you. But the tearing in my heart takes controll of my head. So i must say goodbye in steps in small hops. i wish i could do it faster for you. but i miss your smile, i miss your sent. i miss the kiss of your lips. And the touch of your hand in mine. i miss your beautiful eyes. To shining stars in the heavens that used to shine for me. I miss your voice the soft melody of tenderness and love. I miss your mind so full of wonder. And i miss your heart so full of passion. I love you my dear. I love you so much. so please forgive me, for not being able to say goodbye all at once.


Unknown "Sunshine" Bold - 16 years, 3 months, 10 days ago

death of a soul

open ,gaping ,wounded, hollow. a never ending pain. just a slow decay. no controll no rules no ins no outs. no way to change the past, helpless to change the future. loss of sleep the sheading of tears. fear pain anger. passedby over looked out of controll. this is, this is the death of a soul. running scared memories flood the mind. they take your head and make it spin. they are never ending, running on and on in a race with no finish line. tears in the dark away from all ears. screams in the night trying to fight away the pain. alone dark damp queit. this is the death of a soul. is there no rebirth there is just more pain. how much can pain can a soul endure. open hollow naked truth. reality slips in and truns the world upside down. run run run. trying to run away from it all. any escape from the memories could save this soul. but none of the safe houses provide harbor. there is no fixing this. there is just dying inside. dread fear. pain emptiness. fallen broken unfixable, dying crying never to fly again. caught in a trap of emotions and memories. shame death fear. everlasting night. if only sleep would come. soo empty and sad. this is the death of a soul. alone scared and sad. sinking deeper into pain and loss. this is a death. a death of a soul


Unknown "Sunshine" Bold - 16 years, 3 months, 10 days ago