I surprise myself sometimes at how horrible my mind works and the vicious vindictive situations I concoct for my own personal enjoyment. I am usually a good, well adjusted person but this Animal so very badly wants to take over. Wants to remove all the barriers I have set up not for my own protection but the protection of others around me. The protection of the social structure that surrounds me. These barriers are becoming increasingly weakend day by day and everyone of those days is spent re-inforcing them. I must remain strong. You are made of stone Aaron. Stone, steel and wires. I have complete control over having no control. I, along with everything that is created by man, am doomed to fail eventually. Reality check. Thoughts in fragments, check. Lack of sincere social skills, check. Emotions at a minimal, check. Not dead, check. Good to keep going. Who am I kidding. I'm only a human.
Unknown "Mr. Smith" Serene - 16 years, 5 months, 29 days ago