Waiting through my loneliness
A cold wind is surrounding,
My feelings are no longer counting.
Some thing is trying to haunt me down,
Escaping is my disgusting frown.
Looking down at my hand,
All I can see is a deserted land.
Feelings passing away so fast,
The pain inside, is forever to last.
I loved him some eras ago,
I’d lost him within a painful flow.
A flow colored black turned red,
I’m seeing a body, since a long time dead.
Imaging a knife in my other hand,
Try to implement some life within my deserted land.
Once more I will see the blood flow,
My stare, magnified toward the presented show.
Trying to remember the feelings I once had,
Did I turn completely mad?
I can’t remember, I can not feel,
I know that this external wound will heal.
But what about the part that died along with him?
What about the pain which became my sin?
Is it really a sin for me to feel?
When will my wounds finally heal?
Day by day,
In a cold coven, I lay.
Crying inside, hoping him to hear,
I’m waiting that he will finally take away my fear.
The years have passed by,
The days I was able to cry.
The chaos took over me,
Made me scared to open my eyes and see.
Another time the knife I rise,
Once more a part of me will die.
I can feel him near to me,
I’m opening the eyes for me to see.
Moving my body toward him,
I’m feeling him touching my chin.
Looking within his deep blue eyes,
I can feel my body finally dies.
But this time a smile will last on my face,
While I’m responding his lovingly glace.
Letting him to lead our way,
The time has come, to turn out gay.
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- 16 years, 11 months, 11 days ago