How do you think it makes me feel when you tell me that there was never an us? How could there not have. I fell in love with an idea, never a real person, at least that's what I've been told. To never be able to fall in love again, that's terrible. I guess I would rather 20 broken hearts rather than to not have fallen in love at all. I never blame you, I only blame myself for letting my heart loose and never having a grip on it. I'm happier I promise, don't worry about me because I don't even want you to worry about me anymore, I'd rather you forget about me and to never even speak my name, nor think it.
Unknown "eclipse" Inspired - 15 years, 8 months, 28 days ago

Why does life have to be so complicated. I guess that's what I get for falling in love then making a wreck of myself for absolutely nothing. I never realized it wasn't anything till the very end. I guess I will have to figure this out for myself. To find a real guy that I can share my life with and never be scared of rejection. A guy that truly cares and loves me without boundaries and without limit. That I feel the warmth of this love and not feel suffocated. To feel secure where I place my love. To never forget him and for him to never forget me. To finally feel in love rather than just a flavor. I may be needy but I would hope that's what would be in any relationship. I'm tired of feeling used and not even cared about...I'm through with it.
Unknown "eclipse" Inspired - 15 years, 9 months, 1 day ago

Why? Why does it hurt so much?

The anger, the pain, the suffering,

ripping away at my soul.

Why must you leave me here alone?

To become and adult in my most desperate time of need.

Why is there no time to heal?

Why does time go by slowly when I have wounds to heal?

Are you out there? Reaching for me to come closer?

Are you waiting till I need a shoulder to cry on

Or a laugh to brighten up my day?

Please do not wait, for I need you to need me.

Please come help me get out of my depression

And make me happy and full of life again.

Help me by paving the road toward a new life,

But make stop signs so I can check myself every once in a while.

Just make sure that I know you're there helping me.

Please, will you come save me?


Unknown "eclipse" Inspired - 15 years, 11 months, 24 days ago

well...
1.We work well with poles
2.We touch silk all day.
3.We're flexible.
4.We're good wit our hands.
5.We're use to being hot and sweaty.
6.We can go for long hours.
7.We have easy access clothes.
8.We're good at Stripping.
9.We can get your attention.
10.We're always on top.
that's the colorguard!!!!
Unknown "eclipse" Inspired - 16 years, 4 months, 11 days ago

well...lets see here...
3 fathers
1 mom
6 ex bfs
no current one
is that a tale to tell???

Unknown "eclipse" Inspired - 16 years, 4 months, 17 days ago