I just found out I'm a walking miracle. Literally, truly, a walking miracle.
Unknown "Lindsay" - 15 years, 8 months, 2 days ago

I go for my abdominal ultrasound tomorrow morning on my second round of tests. In some ways, I hope they find something - just so I can know what it is, put together a plan to deal with it and get out of pain. In other ways, I don't want them to find anything. Because all of what it could be, scares me.
Unknown "Lindsay" - 15 years, 8 months, 8 days ago

The physical pain has been really intense lately. The blood work was a nasty experience that left a nasty bruise (but that's healing nicely which is good news for my iron levels). I have an ultrasound next week to check for gall stones. Right now, I think I would like it to be whatever they test for next - just so we can stop testing and start treating!
Unknown "Lindsay" - 15 years, 8 months, 10 days ago

I've had a whopping 3.5 days where I've been really really happy and I'd just like to post about it. No, no boyfriend. Shoot - I'm not even dating right now. I'm just me and I'm just doing my life. I'm enjoying the people around me and just... HAPPY!!! I don't know how long this will last, but it doesn't matter. I'm enjoying right now and it isn't the last time I'll feel this way. YAY!
Unknown "Lindsay" - 15 years, 8 months, 17 days ago

It's one thing to say that you're open to whatever life throws at you and a completely different thing to actually be that way. I would consider it a huge accomplishment to know I lived my life actually BEING open.
Unknown "Lindsay" - 15 years, 10 months, 6 days ago