STuPid to others, Rightous for Me.
As I was listening to 'Look After You' by Fray, a memory comes to mind.
The rejection I gave to him left me with thoughts and memories.
Meeting him is as if God's plan.
He is a gentleman. Yet, I gave him a total rejection.
I know that if I don't tell him now it will be forever no chance to do so. I took my courage to tell him how I feel and why I give him rejection.
Reason is simple. My heart has someone else and HE is more important than him.
HE is my first love and He told me he is not the one for me. For this reason, I obey HIM and give him a total rejection.
Others think that I am stupid to reject him as he is someone different from others, he is from other countries, so far wanted to be here just for me.
Yet, my first love comes first, my Jesus comes first.
I might have hurt him as he could not understand why I am so stubborn to follow my first love. Yet, I see the consequeces if I start the relationship. I just cannot betray my first love. It is right to reject him, good for both of us. We both were in pain... included me... I was down for some times... Yet, I want my Jesus, I want to follow my first love... It is my first love who look after me all the time. He will let the one meet me when it is the time..
Have a nice day, my dearest readers! ;)
Unknown "Teacher Dayna" Timid
- 16 years, 8 months, 21 days ago
