to be honest...
it was really hard to get over her.
im still not completely over her.
but my heart and mind are more set in their resolve.
shes not the person i once loved.
and i know everyone changes.
but for everything weve been through with eachother.
i just cant wait anymore.

im moving onward in my life.
not looking back.

ill always care for her.
and ill always hold the memories of us close to my heart.
but everything is the past.
and ill always love and cherish the person she once was to me.
Unknown "JUSTEENEY" Playful - 16 years, 9 months ago

One day..
That's all I can say...

*looks off into space*
Unknown "JUSTEENEY" Playful - 16 years, 10 months ago

One year.
Never thought it would come.
We aren't official.
But who cares?
We are happy.
That's all that matters.

I'll stay with you.
I'll love you til I die.
I'll protect you.

I love her.
And I always will.
Unknown "JUSTEENEY" Playful - 16 years, 10 months, 7 days ago

You tell me that you love me.
But when we are with others...
I don't exist.
When we are alone...
It's like we are the only ones left.

I don't know you anymore.
Once we were willing to risk everything.
Now...
You won't let me be with you when others are around.

I don't deserve this, do I?
I've paid my dues.
Let me have the happiness I deserve.
Don't rob me of what makes me, me.
Do you want me to be fake?
Pretend to be someone I'm not?
Will that make you happy in the end?
If it does, then kill me where I stand.
Cuz I won't live my life as a fake.

Love me for who I am.
Don't love me for who I am not.
Would you have fallen in love with me, if I was different?
Life would be a lot easier.
But its not for me.
Life will never be simple for me.

I'm holding onto what I believe in.
I'm holding onto whatever is left of my pride.
I'm not going to be used anymore.
Hurt me...
Let's see how much more I can withstand.
Cuz it won't be long before I snap.
You won't be able to control me after that.
Unknown "JUSTEENEY" Playful - 16 years, 10 months, 19 days ago

I recently discovered something.
Actually, I've known this for awhile.

For anyone who knows how I feel, let me know.

I fell in love with someone.
Someone I truly want to be with.
But we can't be together.
Why?
Reasons that a lot of people in my situation know of.

I'm open about the fact that I'm gay.
I grew up knowing that's exactly how I'm going to turn out.
I tried to deny it.
Scared of how people will treat me and look at me.
But I grew sick of hiding.
I didn't want to be unhappy the rest of my life.
So, I came out with it.

The person that I'm in love with.
She's afraid.
She isn't gay or bisexual.
She just happens to love me and wants to be with me.
But she is straight. (don't ask me to explain further)
She doesn't want people to know about us.
But she wants to be with me.

*sighs*
I'm irritated cuz how people of the opposite sex has it easier than those people who love someone of the same sex.
They can show their affection in public and be with each other.
They don't have to hide.
And most of the time.
The people don't even realize how good they have it.
They sometimes take it for granted.

It's hard for me to see that.
And I want that so bad.
But I can't and I wait when I can be with her.
To be happy, even if its for a moment.

Guys and Girls...
Don't let go
What truly makes you happy.
You could make the biggest regret ever.
Be true to yourself and to the one you love.
And never let anything get in your way to love all that you can.
Unknown "JUSTEENEY" Playful - 16 years, 10 months, 21 days ago