Why

Her body hurts
and she doesn't know why
to confused and sick
to force herself to cry
Asking herself
why has it come back to this

The marks on her legs and arms
are a mistake
Something she wish she could take back

But its all still there
the agony
and torture
of being this body and mind
wishing I could find a moment of peace
In some frame of time

But it'll never be over
Never an end to it
So she's gotta live through this

All her weaknesses
on display
for the world to see
what do they think
what could they say

To explain why things are this way
To many addictions and pills to count
Sent away with a prescription
in hopes it will help

Unknown "Absolute Beauty" Insatiable - 16 years, 5 months, 17 days ago

Morbid Bliss

Walking through
these shadowed hallways
all my demons
screaming out to me

to slip and fall
and lose it all
in one perfect moment
of morbid bliss

but how can this
be worth all of it
to just lose control
let go of it

my lease on life
and the soul growing inside
I've breathed through
tortured nights

not knowing why this beast
has claimed my life
but I'm getting lost
entwined
in all of it

So I'm back again
back to the system
wondering how
I can possibly escape

Just please
let me be rid
of those forgotten roses
of this life
and all that is in it
all thats inside

Unknown "Absolute Beauty" Insatiable - 16 years, 6 months, 16 days ago

You

When you look around
and realize
that the only safety you can find
is within my eyes

and as your falling faster
finger tips grasp
onto your hardened soul
bring you back
from the choking cold
of the reality of this life

Twisting and distorting
why is it your hurting
just hear my voice
screaming please
just be here with me

sitting alone
lost in your thoughts
the memories that no one
not a soul
should have ever seen

but your
still standing here
in front of me
and I hope you see
how much you mean to me

of all the years
of pain and hurt
and how much I wished
for just a moment
a second
of this love bliss


Unknown "Absolute Beauty" Insatiable - 16 years, 7 months, 26 days ago

Rose Red

Soaking in a
rose red bath tub
blinking away
regrets

that brought me
to this frightening
reality

of a slight hand
armed with a razor
how soft a touch
can show such agony

as hate spills
down my white legs
I start to think
of all these years
and all this pain

crying out
please just save me
questioning the realms of sanity
wondering if I really create a satisfying reality
Unknown "Absolute Beauty" Insatiable - 16 years, 8 months, 10 days ago

I'm sorry


I'm sorry you had to watch me deteriote
To what I am today
I'm sorry you had to keep your mouth shut
As I showed you my first cuts

I'm sorry you had to betray my trust
In interest of my sanity
I'm sorry you had to look me in the eye
And lie to me

I'm sorry you had to see
The blood
I'm sorry your love
Was not enough

I'm sorry you had to hear
That I took those pills
Swallowing the fear
Knowing they would kill

I'm sorry you were helpless
As you watch me lose my mind
I'm sorry you had to walk in the shadows
Of my attempted suicide

I'm sorry I was commited
I'm sorry I got stitched
I'm sorry I'm distorted
I'm sorry I make you sick

I'm sorry for the bad feeling
That kept you awake at night
I'm sorry its just so hard
To fight this battle half alive

I'm sorry to make you worry
I know you really care
I'm sorry you miss your daughter
For she's not really even there
Unknown "Absolute Beauty" Insatiable - 16 years, 8 months, 25 days ago