Each of these is to a different man in my life, all things i would tell them if i had the chance or the guts....
!.. My Bitch of a man...I gave you my all: my body, my future, my emotions... i surrendered them all to you like an idiot would, only to have you abuse every sigle one of them, you promised, you lied, you crushed, you destoyed! I'll give you this, you totally blind sighted me, You told me you loved me only to get what you wanted and i feel for it, you won! i hope your proud... I want to say ill never be the same, but i hope ill recover from the wreck of a relationship we had. Just know that when i said i loved you i ment it! I got wraped up in the embrace of you...
@... My complicated undesisive man.You confuse me! I love being around you, but at the same time i dont want to be because of all the nights i know you wont be there... you are unreliable! it hurts me to say it cause when you are there you listen to me complain about life and everytihng but its the times you dont call me back or write me that are the hardest ... kudoos to you, you are my sweetest downfall... i get wraped up in the idea of you.
... My poetic jibberish man! ahh! the name says it al, the very reason im attracted to you is the exact same reason you drive me insane... but lately you dissapoint me, you have become so wraped up in the very things we used to hate together (money, sex, and the world) just say no! but youve embraced them all and i see them tearing you apart, but you wont open up to me, youve compleatly shut me out.. you pretend we are close and promis things you dont even plan to follow through with just to make me happy in that moment, so to you i say stop lying, stope faking it! be true to the man i know you can be and stop wishing for things to change and change them! I get wraped up with your poems...
$... My far away hope... You have your downfalls this is true, you need to let things go, stop saying your sorry (even though its nice to hear) and tell me really what you want and stand up to me. But you get the award for being there and truely showing love to me, i just wish i could really know what its like to be aroung you... i get wraped up in our distance.
%... My tease! ahh lol you are a weakness for the only reason that you try to make me believe i mean nothing to you, but at the same time i know i do... you wont show me any sort of affection and its hard because i know you can (you have once) ... alll i know is i will continue to be there for you beacause i get wraped up in wanting you to want me....
^... My dearest... You truely are a man i have grown to care for so much, we have had SO many ups and downs but we came through... what started at shallow which eventually grew really deep but only to return to shallow... I worry about you love i know you have your issues i just wish you'd let me help you like you have helped me, just know i am here for you. cause I get wrapped up in wanting to fix the world for you.
&... My for a moment... this one is for all the men who have impacted me in this life but havent changed me enough to get there own letter... You have come in and out of my life to fast to recalect but you where there and you have made a difference (not always a good one and not always a bad one) i get wraped up in your moment.
so this is my letter... these are my thoughts.. unedited.
Unknown "MINE" Gloomy
- 16 years, 10 months, 11 days ago
