Have you ever wondered what it would be like if you just... weren't?
Not necessarily didn't exsist... but you just, -weren't-.
You were nothing, you didn't live, you had no soul, no mind, no emotions?
That's how I feel right now.
I know I'm alive, I know I'm human. I have a body, I have an appearance.
But that's all.
I feel nothing, I think nothing, I do nothing, I am... nothing.
It's as if I've fallen into a bottomless pit. Just falling through the darkness and hoping to land, but with no luck.
I try and act like 'myself' but it's as though I'm losing sight of just who exactly 'myself' is. I feel like I've lost a part of me, something is missing... I just feel... empty.
I am not unhappy. But I am not happy. I'm stuck inbetween... neutral. Nothing.
My "emotions" seem to be manufatured by the situations I am faced with around me, nothing is surreal, nothing is what I feel... It's just -how- I should be acting so that's what it comes off as.
Is this good or bad? I'm not sure. It's clearly causing problems, but it seems as if there's nothing I can do about it.
I'm empty. I'm missing something.
What is it? :(
Unknown "Sammi " Growling
- 16 years, 7 months, 18 days ago
