I just bought my crappiest item trying to erase it...

>.>

Damnit. -.-
Unknown "JaY" Wild - 16 years, 7 months, 24 days ago

Baaaaw, I'm bored as HELL.

Been doing stuff on 3d now cause of class. It's pretty cool.. Consumes a LOT of time though. Working on a little project at the moment, it's a small robot. I like it, looks kinda cute. Remind me of Toy Story. Especially Buzz. XD

Anywho.. Thinking about what sort of weapon it'll have.. or armament. Brainstorming much? Guess so. But nothing comes to mind. I think I'm bout to call it quits.

Yeh..

Sounds good 'nuff.

Nite guise. :]
Unknown "JaY" Wild - 16 years, 9 months, 22 days ago

Part I.


There are things in life; things we don't necesarily expect, people that come and go like the wind, or something as simple as a bland smile from a stranger that somehow took part in making who we are today. There are countless occurrences, but most of these are often neglected. Nonetheless, they change us.

As far back as my memory goes, I've always been a rather shy and nervous person around others. I could be amongst best of friends, and yet, I held some of me back. Thoughts of me having a private conversation or being on stage were daunting. Ironically enough, I've always envisioned myself on stage playing guitar or being an actor.

Recently, though, I've met a set of whole new people, with wittily ideals and lifestyles. It's safe to say that my essence, my self, has been altered by them slightly. Each of them, adding a bit, piece by piece, as if every person had their own special installment that had to be added.

There's one girl in particular who has completely overriden the way I think. I have to admit, I am attracted to her. But that's not the reason why she's changed me. She did so without noticing. Being herself around me, sharing moments with me. All those little details, those little comments, those little looks; all of that took part into making me see something else, especially within myself.

As much as I'm tempted to do so, I cannot reveal any personal information about her. We're eachother's "Dirty Little Secret", like that song from FallOut Boy says.

Ever since our very first encounter, there was a connection. Not something you notice clearly, but a feeling. A feeling that says enough to keep you going, but still leaves a sense of mystery on the atmosphere. Throughout our first conversation we shared most of our current complications in life.

Quite the ice-breaker, isn't it?
Unknown "JaY" Wild - 16 years, 12 months, 2 days ago

Part II.

Everything went well. We all found new ways to look at them, and deal with them. And at the perfect moment, too. If that wouldn't have happened, we'd still be enthralled by our problems. Some might call it coincidence, but we chose to call it "..something a cosmic force from an unknown dimension planned.." It's plausible, right?

The funny thing is, we're so alike, we have so much in common, that it's freaky sometimes. She's the only person I've ever been able to open up with about anything, and everything, and nothing would steer badly. But I digress.

On one of our recent conversations, she told me "Just go with what feels right, that's what I do." That's something I've been telling most of my friends everytime they come to me with issues. Finally, now, it made some sense to me. Right then and there, a movie made out of broken memories began playing at light speed. The first noticeable change had been made. One that will, and has, changed me and the way I deal with most choices in life. It's amazing to think about what a simple phrase said with just the right attitude can do.

I'm sure that in time, more changes will occur. This year, perhaps, hundreds of changes will work their way through me. Whether I notice or not. She was the beginning, the reborn of a new self. Things never remain the same, thus change isn't something to be afraid of. But whatever kind of change I'll go through, especially with her now, will have great impact on my life. It all depends on what she says, what she does, how she acts, if she leaves, if she stays, when she looks, how she looks, her smile... So many factors. Infinite possibilities emerging from one single being.

It's the importance of that being, your perception of that person, which determines whether change will occur or not. True enough, someone that isn't a friend can, and most likely will make changes in your life; but if that person in question is your friend, or even more than that, your attention to every detail will make everything count.

Don't miss out on life's opportunities, as doors are shown to you every second. It's your choice to go through them, and even if you want to see them. More, better possibilities will appear before you as you change your ways. Choose wisely, and be hasty, but cautious. Don't think about things too much; time itself may not be real, it may not be a factor, but it's still a way to measure how much we've lost and how much there's still left to do.
Unknown "JaY" Wild - 16 years, 12 months, 2 days ago

Holy freakin craaaap, I got a new tv for Xmas. : O

It's freakin SWEEET... Mounting it right now <3
Unknown "JaY" Wild - 17 years, 1 day ago