A time comes in your life when you finally get it . . . When in the midst of
all your fears and insanity you stop dead in your tracks and somewhere the
voice inside your head cries out - ENOUGH! Enough fighting and crying or
struggling to hold on. And, like a child quieting down after a blind
tantrum,your sobs begin to subside, you shudder once or twice, you blink
back your tears and through a mantle of wet lashes you begin to look at the
world through new eyes. This is your awakening.
You realize that it's time to stop hoping and waiting for something to
change or for happiness, safety and security to come galloping over the next
horizon.You come to terms with the fact that he is not Prince Charming and
you are not Cinderella and that in the real world there aren't always
fairytale endings (or beginnings for that matter) and that any guarantee
of"happily ever after" must begin with you and in the process a sense of
serenity is born of acceptance.
You awaken to the fact that you are not perfect and that not everyone will
always love, appreciate or approve of who or what you are . . . and that's
OK. (They are entitled to their own views and opinions.) And you learn the
importance of loving and championing yourself and in the process a sense of
new found confidence is born of self-approval.You stop complaining and
blaming other people for the things they did to you(or didn't do for you)
and you learn that the only thing you can really count on is the unexpected.
You learn that people don't always say what they mean or mean what they say
and that not everyone will always be there for you and that it's not always
about you. So, you learn to stand on your own and to take care of yourself
and in the process a sense of safety & security is born of self-reliance.
You stop judging and pointing fingers and you begin to accept people as they
are and to overlook their shortcomings and human frailties and in the
process a sense of peace & contentment is born of forgiveness.You realize
that much of the way you view yourself, and the world around you, is as a
result of all the messages and opinions that have been ingrained into your
psyche. And you begin to sift through all the crap you've been fed about how
you should behave, how you should look and how much you should weigh, what
you should wear and where you should shop and what you should drive, how and
where you should live and what you should do for a living, who you should
marry and what you should expect of a marriage, the importance of having and
raising children or what you owe your parents.
You learn to open up to new worlds and different points of view. And you
begin reassessing and redefining who you are and what you really stand
for.You learn the difference between wanting and needing and you begin to
discard the doctrines and values you've outgrown, or should never have
bought into to begin with and in the process you learn to go with your
instincts. You learn that it is truly in giving that we receive. And that
there is power and glory in creating and contributing and you stop
maneuvering through life merely as a "consumer" looking for your next fix.
Your learn that principles such as honesty and integrity are not the
outdated ideals of a bygone era but the mortar that holds together the
foundation upon which you must build a life.
You learn that you don't know everything; it's not your job to save the
world and that you can't teach a pig to sing. You learn to distinguish
between guilt and responsibility and the importance of setting boundaries
and learning to say NO. You learn that the only cross to bear is the one you
choose to carry and that martyrs get burned at the stake.
Then you learn about love. Romantic love and familial love. How to love, how
much to give in love, when to stop giving and when to walk away. You learn
not to project your needs or your feelings
Unknown "Stillness" Intrigued
- 16 years, 2 months, 16 days ago
