To you..

I wrote this in hopes of you to understand.
I wrote this in order for you to know.
To feel. To see me, actually see me.

You are everything I want. Everything.
Can't you see that I love you?
Can't you just let me do that?

But you can't. And you won't see this.
So I'll go on aching for you.
Wanting only you...
Guess I should try to hit send..
Unknown "Rachel" Hungry - 16 years, 6 months, 5 days ago

I feel it in your breath upon moist skin
then burrowing itself deep into my core.

We fought before like this and yet not.
Never this final. Never this calm.

With you it was always a malstorm brewing.

Carefully tiptoing around the situation,
so not to break down the walls with your words,
your anger and sometimes those iron fists.

Fingers clentched shaking almost uncontrollably.
You try so hard and I push and bend and try to break
all those careful bonds you have in place.
This last time, you'd think to yourself as you strike.

Sending me to the floor. Broken. Battered.
Unknown "Rachel" Hungry - 16 years, 7 months, 11 days ago

Song lyrics. I asked my good friend the other day to pick a song out of one of my favorite bands that bests sums me up. Their answer..

I am a just a worthless liar. I am just an imbecile. I will only complicate you. Trust in me and fall as well. I will find a center in you. I will chew it up and leave, I will work to elevate you just enough to bring you down.. Tool "Sober"

..thanks, bitch. :( *ANGRYFACE*

No. Not really.
Unknown "Rachel" Hungry - 16 years, 8 months, 27 days ago

Remembering.

Please, don't.
I say as you yell louder.
Fingers clentching.
Fists forming.
I recoil, readying for an
attack. Nothing..
Breathing slowed.
Tears reforming under lids.
I beg once more.
Please, don't
You tell me you love me.
Then it shatters. Gone
all to hell. Contact.
It will hurt worse if I
fight it. I let loose.
I let you win. Like always.
You always win.
I fold.
I lose.
You murder me all over again.
Unknown "Rachel" Hungry - 16 years, 8 months, 27 days ago

Toyed.
Th-thunk. Th-thunk. Th-thunk.
Can you feel that? Hear it?
Beating faster the moment you walk in.
It skips a beat when you glance up at me.
Playing coy and baiting all those other
girlies around. I smile back before I have to
look away. I can't let you see what you do
to me. The way me cheeks flush when you,
you smile that half smile. Dimple shown.
How my skin aches to be next to yours.
Dripped with sweat and sedated.
Can you feel me growing with want.
All the way across the room.
Our little dance before the great show.
Tonight is going to be hell.
The wait. The slow drawn out seduction.
But then you'll be gone in the morning.
Like always. Always the toy, never the girl.
But, I guess we all can't get what we want.
Unknown "Rachel" Hungry - 16 years, 8 months, 27 days ago