yesterday was the day last year when it all happen... i look back and see those happy days where everyone plus i was happy and really enjoying themselves without anything to worry about but yesterday this year i was surround by my friends all havin fun but it was not the same... everyone keeps tellin forget about it and just remember the good time the fun times.. i try....... but that just takes me back to a place where i just see darkness.. i know i know there is light at the end of the tunnel... but when is the darkness goin to end when am i goin to come into the light and enjoy a new life... a new adventure ...when is the tunnel goin to end??? what more do i have to face ??? how many people do i hav to face ??? its like i gave her something so dear to me that i can not live without it..i gave her my "sanity" my "love" and my "life".... all i wish for is soon i get them back somehow some day
she is my Kryptonite
Unknown "BaldingBear" Neglected - 16 years, 9 months, 15 days ago

I dont know why i just want to keep myself far away from reality cause it just seems easier and i dont want to feel the pain and depression that reality brings along.. Life , love and relationships i think are over rated and just hurtfull.. maybe thats just me but i dont know wat is the true meaning is life i thought i found it about six months ago but it turned out to be wrong and just left a hole and i dont know how i or anyone else is fill it
Unknown "BaldingBear" Neglected - 16 years, 9 months, 28 days ago

Black Clouds

This is making me crazy
These black clouds following me
So I look for signs of light, but rarely I see them

I return to my shelter and I crawl in a bottle
I'm losing my will for this, so over-emotional
Black clouds, they rain down, but they can't kill the sun

Confession of depression, this life I'm second guessing
Like ashes to ashes, I always seem to fall down
I'm tired of running, it's time to face my demons
Confession of depression, this life I'm second guessing

My emotions are storming
And tears fall just like rain
Pain strikes like lightning, despair is becoming my friend

I return to my shelter and I crawl in a bottle
I'm losing my will for this, so over-emotional
Black clouds, they rain down, but they can't kill the sun (the sun)

Confession of depression, this life I'm second guessing
Like ashes to ashes, I always seem to fall down
I'm tired of running, it's time to face my demons
Confession of depression, this life I'm second guessing

Black clouds, they rain down, but they can't kill the son ... inside

Still looking for signs of life
These black clouds keep following me!

I return to my shelter and I crawl in a bottle
Black clouds, they rain down, but they can't kill the sun

Confession of depression, this life I'm second guessing
Like ashes to ashes, I always seem to fall down
I'm pushing myself to a point of self destruction
Confession of depression, this life I'm second guessing
I'm tired of running, it's time to face my demons
Confession of depression, this life I'm second guessing

Black clouds, they rain down, but they can't kill the son ... inside!
Unknown "BaldingBear" Neglected - 16 years, 11 months, 2 days ago

"Scars"

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And my scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

Drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed cause you came around
Why don't you just go home
Cause you channel all your pain
And I can't help you fix yourself
You're making me insane
All I can say is


Unknown "BaldingBear" Neglected - 16 years, 11 months, 2 days ago

I can't escape this hell
So many times i've tried
But i'm still caged inside
Somebody get me through this nightmare
I can't control myself

So what if you can see the darkest side of me?
No one will ever change this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal
(This animal, this animal)

I can't escape myself
(I can't escape myself)
So many times i've lied
(So many times i've lied)
But there's still rage inside
Somebody get me through this nightmare
I can't control myself

Unknown "BaldingBear" Neglected - 16 years, 11 months, 3 days ago