Also i hat my shyness and lack of self confidence! now i know i sound like a whiny git blaming socitey for that.... but fuck it its societies fault... or more acuratley a small group of people in societies fault!
still i hate it and there is nothing i can do about it.... i've been trying for years and i just can't change it!
Unknown Hopeless - 16 years, 11 months, 3 days ago

Prevoius tale was just the tip of the iceberg, as once again i can't sleep!
but on the same lines of human society, we have really fucked ourselves up in a big way!
i mean, like everyone is programed from the moment they r born to behave in the same way, with no individuality at all or anything! luckily the human spirit means that not everyone ends up behanivng exactly the same, but alot of them do all tend to act similarly. Then you get those smart enough to break away from this mainstream (not just smart they may be free thinkers, disnhartened, just naturally different ectect) but even then most the time they still can't break out of the most basic things society has programed into us.
For example is ther one person out there, just one who really truley doesn't care what other people think about them, one person whos mind it never crosses?
i don't think so? at least i've never met one? They may say they don't but u just know that it crossed their mind every so often, even if they don't mean it to, they just can't help it!
Unknown Hopeless - 16 years, 11 months, 3 days ago

Sorry on a bit of a rant cos i can't sleep!
But like WTF happened to society? I mean really, look around! don't see a problem well LOOK HARDER!
Is it just me or can u not be nice to people any more? i mean seriously i swear i get doggy look from people sometimes when i hold the door for them. and if you don't they ignore you like u don't exist your its your job to just stand there and open it.
Fine i don't expect anything when do open the door for some one. I'm just being polite, but would it really hurt to be polite back!
Unknown Hopeless - 16 years, 11 months, 4 days ago

I just spent 2 1/2 hours sewing up a pair of leather studed gloves!
WTF can't they just make them properly in the first place!
fine they were £4 so u expect them to not be brillinant, but u still don't expect to have to fix them everytime u use them?
I swear soon there will be more of my stiching in them than the original!
Unknown Hopeless - 16 years, 11 months, 4 days ago