(This has got to be one of the most fucked up conversations ever)

Tamer
hi
how r u ?
can we talk if u dont mind

Patricia
hello, and I'm good and up for talking

Tamer
thnx
nice to meet u

Patricia
nice to meet you too

Tamer
i thought ur lesbian
from ur pro

Patricia
I am

Tamer
my ex was bisexual

Patricia
cool

Tamer
so u have a gf or not ?

Patricia
not yet

Tamer
why

Patricia
the school I go to sucks, and the kid there that I like doesn't know I exist

Tamer
so how u found that ur lesbian

Patricia
because I don't like guy and chicks are hot

Tamer
lol smart answer
so u never tried guys

Patricia
nope

Tamer
u have a fetish or not ?

Patricia
fetish?

Tamer
cuz i think most of lesbians have fetishes
yes like foot fetish
anal
bdsm
stuff like that
freak sex
i mean

Patricia
I don't have any fetishes
and I'm a bit young to be having freak sex

Tamer
but i think u act as the male in the relation right

Patricia
actually there isn't really a male or female role in all of the relationships
that would be true if it was a femme and a butch
but if it was a butch and butch or a femme and femme together then there would be no roles

Tamer
simple question do you like to lick or be licked

Patricia
I've never tried any of that to actually know

Tamer
u still virgin or what/

Patricia
yes I am

Tamer
so how u decide babe that u r lesbian
u never tried both men or women

Patricia
because I would never be with a guy
I'm attracted to chicks, guys are just creepy

Tamer
but i think its so hard that u didnt have sex till now

Patricia
what do you mean by "now"

Tamer
till this moment i mean

Patricia
I'm not having sex now

Tamer
but u never feel horny when u see sexy girl

Patricia
I don't have a sex drive to get horny when I see a hot chick

(He never responded after this)
Unknown Courageous - 16 years, 19 days ago

Unknown Courageous - 16 years, 2 months, 16 days ago

All the Things She Said by t.A.T.u.

Unknown Courageous - 16 years, 2 months, 21 days ago

So, I've been thinking a lot about death lately. And wondering if I were to actually off myself, Who would actually care? Not like I actually have any real friends, the kids I hang out with rather hang out with other people, and the kid who I thought was a really good friend keeps ignoring me, then goes back to being friends with me, but then switches back to the ignoring again, and there really isn't any explanation to it. It's not like she does this to other people, plus the kids she hangs out with don't like me. But that's not the first time I've lost a kid who I thought was my really good friend.
I'm so different then the rest of my family, that I don't connect with them, and I'm tired of them treating me like I'm nothing.
I have no one that I can talk to about why I end up feeling like shit, I'm unable to open up to anyone. I already know that I suffer from mild depression but I don't take anything for it.
So back to my original question, who would actually care enough that if I were to die, that they would be sad and miss me? Not like the any of those bastards cared enough to keep in contact with me when school let out. So if they didn't care to talk to me for a couple of months, then why should they care about never talking to me again?
Besides, I'm really curious about what happens after death, like if there is actually a heaven or hell, would I just end up in purgatory, get reborn into something else, something way better and kick-ass then a measly human shell, be able to take revenge on this pitiful planet of humans who believe themselves to be the best, let them know just how worthless they really are, make them feel as worthless as they make me feel everyday.
I know I sound kinda crazy with this, or gothic or emo, but I'm none of those, nor am I suicidal, I'm just a kid who has gotten sick of this sorry excuse for a world.
Unknown Courageous - 16 years, 2 months, 27 days ago

No Boy, No Cry by Stance Punks

Translation:
The sky of silver cracking.
I saw, standing, vaguely
To the point of being bored
I would die before becoming that way
Boy! Listen to me!
Humans aren't all that great
Because such a tomorrow really isn't needed
Don't hide your clenched fist.
Almost to the point of selling off that dream
You aren't going to turn out that old
Hey kid, the heart's gun,
The only one that can pull that trigger is you.
All of the young people said,
"This is pointless, it there's no hope.
As for that guy over there
That's another story."
All of the young people said,
"Our shrieking voices are
freedom lurking under the bed."
While our understanding doesn't meet
Exhaling power of that day's injuries
Even now, feeling like falling over, I
Will drag along from long ago
Until it almost broke apart
I tried screaming. Not a single
Answer of any kind would come out except
to sit there doing nothing but laughing.
I don't want to become like those guys.
All of the young people said,
"This is pointless, it can't be helped.
In this wonderful world
We're all here just living our lives."
All of the young people said,
"Outstanding truth and lies
It's for there to be no way for me to forget them."
All of the young people said,
"I'm too young to die!
The chilled faces lining up
In this empty town."
All of the young people said,
"On this windless night
Because I'm trying to change something.
Our screaming, this voice,
Even a terrorist couldn't extinguish it!"
Unknown Courageous - 16 years, 2 months, 27 days ago