I sit on the cusp of darkness as a choice. With the darkness to protect me and the light to keep me on edge there is there is but one Master and Mistress that can lure me into the eternal and it is them whom I crave to please. Once again I offer myself to you as a sacrifice...to use me for your pleasure and take from me all that you desire. I kneel before you and await your command.
Unknown "Suil" Loyal - 15 years, 10 months, 5 days ago

A dark shadow envelopes me lately and it is a darkness I am cmfortable in. It does not frighten me...instead, it entices me. I crave the velvety feeling of its cloak and offer it to my dark mistress and master as a gift.

This gift of darkness its an offering of my soul for you to take and use for your own pleasure. Your pleasure is my pleasure....please take me into your circle....please allow me to be your slave of darkness.

I kneel before you...head down...palms up...and await your command.

Unknown "Suil" Loyal - 16 years, 1 month, 26 days ago

I wait patiently in the darkness for a master or mistress to shakle me and claim me as theirs. I want nothing more than to be a servant and to please my owner. My skin craves to feel the sharpness of your discipline as it leaves behind a stream of crimson. I deserve all the punsihment and pain you will give me...for I am but a slave to your desires. Take me and use my body and my mind for your pleasure and I will again and again bow at your feet and await your command. I wait patiently in the darkness......
Unknown "Suil" Loyal - 16 years, 4 months, 27 days ago

I have been victim to many hands, through all stages of my life.
Some were gentle and caring, and some were violent and brutalizing.
It is the hands that crossed both spheres that caused the most damage..
to my pysche and my soul.

I do not resent those hands, for they make me who I am today.
But I do have an insatiable need to replicate those hands
for it is only those hands that can dissolve the numbness
and allow me to feel.

I made it through all the stages of abuse in my life
and become very successful and confident in the outside world.
But for some reason I am continuously drawn back to the darkness.
The darkness is where I can feel and be who I really am.

It is in the darkness that I can let others in
and beg of them to take control of me...
Free of guilt and free of judgement.

So please Dark Master and Dark Mistress,
Take me into your world as your servant
and help me to feel again...


Unknown "Suil" Loyal - 16 years, 6 months, 21 days ago

I am wanting, needing, begging for punishment
Pain and degradation are the only way for me to feel.
Please Dark Mistress and Master...
scar my flesh and bind me tight.
I will be yours through eternity.
Unknown "Suil" Loyal - 16 years, 6 months, 22 days ago