Emotional ups and downs have kept my mind in a constant state of distress lately, but today I'm happy to report that I've been able to remain on an even keel.

Things around here have been somewhat hectic, but I think I've found something to occupy my time. A new 'hobby' if you will. Perhaps I'll post pictures in the near future.

I don't have much to say, really. It's been a nice day and I spent some time outside in the sun. It's beautiful out and I look forward to spending the majority of the summer outdoors.
Unknown "Slave Kitten" OWNED - 16 years, 6 months, 7 days ago

So I'm imperfect.

But if I was perfect, would I be worth it?

There have been times recently where my attitude has gotten the best of me. There have been times recently where my emotions have gotten the best of me. And there have been times recently where you've tried to tell me things and I just didn't want to hear it.

For these things, I beg forgiveness. There is no one way to express how sorry I am for treating you in the way that I did. There is no one way to express how sorry I am for saying the things that I said. There is no one way to express how sorry I am for trying my hardest to push you away simply because I was scared.

Like you always tell me, 'That's not my call.'

You have extended me the most patience I've ever seen one person display, and more guidance than I sometimes think I deserve. You are amazing, and I am lucky to be your baby. I wear your collar with pride. I am proud to call you my Master. I am flattered that you've chosen to take me as yours.

I hope you can accept my apology, Master. I love you much more than anything, and my main concern is your happiness. Please, give me every chance to make you the happiest man in the world. You deserve it, my Master.

I love you.

Unknown "Slave Kitten" OWNED - 16 years, 6 months, 10 days ago

I still can't accurately describe it, but I'm certain that I know what true love feels like.

My Owner causes such a range of emotions inside of me that I can hardly keep up with them. My heart aches when I'm not with him, and my body longs to feel his touch. When I think of the temporary distance between us tears well in my eyes. Yet when I envision our future together my heart swells with happiness.

Sometimes I'm a brat. But he puts me in my place.

Sometimes I cry, and he helps me dry my tears.

Sometimes I feel hopeless, but he continues to give me hope.

Sometimes I wonder what I'd do without him, but then I realize that I'll never be without him.

He is a part of me as much as I'm a part of him, and I couldn't ask for more. He owns me; mind, body, and soul. He holds my leash, and he occupies my heart.

I dare say I'm the luckiest woman in the world.

I love you, Daddy. With everything I have.
Unknown "Slave Kitten" OWNED - 16 years, 6 months, 19 days ago

Life.

A four letter word, yet so full of complication. Nothing goes off without a hitch, and everything seems to come with some sort of baggage or another.

Is it wrong to want things to be perfect? To find that missing piece to your puzzle and want it to fit immediately? Is it wrong to want to be selfish and dive into the life that you know you want and deserve, even though it may hurt some of those around you?

I'm not sure where to take this pseudo-rant from here. There's just a few different thoughts floating around my head and I can't put them in any specific order. So, that's the short version.
Unknown "Slave Kitten" OWNED - 16 years, 7 months ago

What is love?

According to Dictionary.com there are many definitions to the word:

love Audio Help /lʌv/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[luhv] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation noun, verb, loved, lov·ing.
–noun
1. a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person.
2. a feeling of warm personal attachment or deep affection, as for a parent, child, or friend.
3. sexual passion or desire.
4. a person toward whom love is felt; beloved person; sweetheart.
5. (used in direct address as a term of endearment, affection, or the like): Would you like to see a movie, love?
6. a love affair; an intensely amorous incident; amour.
7. sexual intercourse; copulation.
8. (initial capital letter) a personification of sexual affection, as Eros or Cupid.
9. affectionate concern for the well-being of others: the love of one's neighbor.
10. strong predilection, enthusiasm, or liking for anything: her love of books.
11. the object or thing so liked: The theater was her great love.
12. the benevolent affection of God for His creatures, or the reverent affection due from them to God.
13. Chiefly Tennis. a score of zero; nothing.
14. a word formerly used in communications to represent the letter L.
–verb (used with object)
15. to have love or affection for: All her pupils love her.
16. to have a profoundly tender, passionate affection for (another person).
17. to have a strong liking for; take great pleasure in: to love music.
18. to need or require; benefit greatly from: Plants love sunlight.
19. to embrace and kiss (someone), as a lover.
20. to have sexual intercourse with.
–verb (used without object)
21. to have love or affection for another person; be in love.
—Verb phrase


Does any of that accurately describe the feeling one has when they are madly in love with another? Sure, certain parts may fit; sexual desire, passionate attachment, personal affection. But can reading this definition prepare someone for that fluttery feeling they're going to experience in the pit of their stomach? Or the way their heart actually aches when that person isn't around? Or the sense of loss and mourning when you can't just reach out and feel the body of the person you adore? No. It can't.

I once thought I knew what love was. I thought I had it all figured out. Turns out I was wrong. Very, very wrong.

The love I feel now is the most intense of all feelings. It puts me through a range of emotions every day, and I can't get my love off of my mind. It breaks my heart that I can't be with him at the moment, but I find solace knowing that our time will come. I have faith that we'll be together for the rest of ever. That I can spend the rest of my life at his feet, keeping him happy and content.

So, can love be summed up in so few words? Absolutely not. It's so much more.
Unknown "Slave Kitten" OWNED - 16 years, 7 months, 7 days ago