Tahlia laid alone in his bed her head swarming with hatred and pity for herself.
Every night another lover. Every morning another heartbreak
She crawled the streets her heart on her sleave but unlike most her heart has a fee.
Red lights shining bright as she stands on the corner waiting for a car to stop.
She would hope one day she would find her lover.
Who can love the girl who puts a price on their body.
Her cheeks were red and her skin would burn as a tear drop slipped through.
A car stops and beeps at her and she quickly wipes her guilt away.
"Hey baby are you a little lost" She said.
It was all an act she had learned to play.
A sexy glance and a playful smirk and she will get your weekly wage.
"Maybe you can help me with directions" he would say.
She scanned him over once or twice handsome rugged seemed trusting enough.
Into the car and to his house or any dingy hotel he will pay for.
She would let him inside her to indulge in her but only for a fee.
In the morning they were always gone.
Nothing left but shame and guilt and the smell of cheap wine.
The money... would go into criminal self indulgance.
A pitty gift for a tortured mind.
What a fool to believe a man would want any more from her
What a fool to believe that those sweet whispers were anything
What a fool she was to believe him when he said he would never leave her
What a fool she is and she will be fooled again.
But not this time no not anymore not another man.
She can not take this game of cat and mouse any further.
Just too much of this self indulgance could end it forever.
She chokes on her own substance as a fit goes over her whole body.
Shaking uncontrollably throthing at the mouth.
Her eyes roll to the back of the head.
And as she breathes no more she seeks peace within herself.
Unknown "Musing" Ferocious
- 16 years, 7 months, 19 days ago
