So much changed and so quickly. Russell and I have separated. We are still trying to work on our marriage, but for the time being we are living apart. The children live with me and visit with him 3 weekends a month.
I'll be starting school again soon. I'm going for EMT basic certification by summer. The girls will be in the CDC at my college while I am in class, which is great for all of us ^_^
I will probably be starting a part time job soon as well, though I've not decided just yet what that will be. I could be working an okay job making really good money or a job I'll really enjoy/be good at but for less money. Not sure which is better at this point considering how much time and energy I will already be putting into school. A full-time student and a full-time mom, I can't put too many hours into a job to begin with, but if I'm putting too much energy in it, I might not be doing as well at the other more important things in my life.
I had a great Christmas spent with family and loved ones. I was able to give a lot more presents than usual (which is weird considering I have no income) and I received some really great gifts too (including a laptop and some new Tripps.)
Overall, I am really happy right now. While life is far from perfect, I have a good sense of who I am and where I am going. I hope that in the coming days Russell joins me in this, but I know that if he doesn't I will still be okay. He told me the other day that it seemed like I didn't need him anymore and all I could think was "So what if I don't? Isn't it even more meaningful that I still want you even though I don't need you"...
Cassandra Holly "Moot" Playful
- 15 years, 10 months, 15 days ago