note: if you ever read my tales, they will just be my train of thoughts at that exact moment that i come up with a topic, i usually go on tangents when i write and i dont care about my spelling or grammatical errors when i am writing because this is not a graded paper, so i really dont care how unreasonable it is. JUST BE WARNED before you read :]
everyday that passes, there seems to be nothing new. everything seems the same. there seems to be nothing that is ever going to happen and it just gives me a gloomy feeling of how the rest of my life will be. even though i still have my life to live, i already feel as if im going through my mid-life crisis already. D: maybe my "midlife crisis" shouldnt exactly be called a "midlife crisis" even though i haven't come face to face with anything in particular that can totally change the way of how my life is lived. it just feels like a lot of stress i guess even for other people would feel the same way as i do since we all face the same troubles no matter how much it may or may not impact us. like everyone says, with age comes maturity with maturity comes wisdom...i have a strong feeling that when i age i will look back upon my teens and see what a mistake i was. However, right now, i couldn't care less about how much of a fool i make of myself in front of others i believe that i am entitled to my teens of insanity :P no one in this world can say that they were not as immature as those youngsters that they look down upon. seriously we were all like that one time or another in our lifetimes. technically we are basically ALL THE SAME :]
Unknown Emo - 17 years, 5 months ago

...I guess that life isn't all that much of what anyone can expect. There isn't much to say about it. Each day we face the same routines, however, if we are ever lucky, we would get some unfortunate or fortunate events that just suddenly pop up into our lives. At those times we are faced with the difficulty of decisions. Deciding what to do in life is what I find as one of the hardest things to overcome. Many times I've been faced with quick situations that are a 123 conflict...those that give you only a few seconds to decide, they KILL me, its so difficult to decide in the little amount of time. It's like I don't want to hurt this person, I don't want to hurt that person...ughh they practically torture me. I always try to stay neutral, I hate it when people try to make me pick sides...cause if I do I might end up hurting the other person or something like that. I'm always afraid that the decision I make would end up being the wrong one and I'm scared to face the consequences by myself and I am scared to hurt others. Actually I would have to say that I am truly terrified at the idea of making my own decisions, even though I try hard not to show that I am. Technically I think I might care a little too much of how others look at me. I'm always afraid that someone out there will hate me, but that I know I can never change, there will ALWAYS be someone who will hate you out there in the world, even if you don't know who it is, there is a great possibility because NO ONE in this world is perfectly liked by others....
That was a very random entry...but I guess its okay...even though I seriously suck at writing :D
Unknown Emo - 17 years, 5 months, 2 days ago