"I am above the weakness of seeking to establish a sequence of cause and effect, between the disaster and the atrocity." --Edgar Allan Poe
Johanna katrin Svansdottir "Drucilla" Naughty - 15 years, 1 month, 29 days ago

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Johanna katrin Svansdottir "Drucilla" Naughty - 15 years, 2 months, 2 days ago

happy motha fuckin birthday to me! yay!!!! happy mutha fuckin birthday to me! its my birthday!!!! yay me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Johanna katrin Svansdottir "Drucilla" Naughty - 15 years, 9 months, 28 days ago

MOTHER

I am a woman.
I do not create life.
I am merely a tool
for such an arduous task.

For I did not carve out
my sons beautiful face
with my own two hands,
nor did I paint
the color of his skin,
the sun kissed blonde,
or the gleaming ice blue
of the pigments of his eyes.
I did not configure him
on a cellular level.

I was a vessel
of safety and warmth.
I provided
some ingredients.
I did not give
him his soul, or
the essence of life.

This beautiful child
was given to me.
I do not have right
to harm
to neglect
to abuse
this child.
No right.
An absolute splendor.
A happy pair
we two make
in life.
I now have a
reason for living.
I provide,
I sacrifice,
I love....
All my life´s journey
revolves around this child.

© Johanna Svansdottir, All rights reserved

Johanna katrin Svansdottir "Drucilla" Naughty - 15 years, 10 months, 13 days ago

I WRITHE....

I find myself lying awake at night,
Trying to keep my heart in my chest.
I struggle forever and to the end of time,
It is so difficult to digest.
I want to rip through my skin,
I want to cry out - scream til I cant anymore.
To turn it into something else
Would be a miracle found in folklore.
I cant live or breathe without
This presence of everlasting hate.
For it bothers, it itches, it eats
At me and its making me irate.
It doesnt take long to find its way up
From the vastness of my core,
Because this anger, pain, fury, or whatever its is...
Release its longing for.
Why wont it stop with anything I do,
I cant seem to ever find peace.
I constantly pray and cry and dream
For some form of its decease.

© Johanna Svansdottir, All rights reserved
Johanna katrin Svansdottir "Drucilla" Naughty - 15 years, 10 months, 13 days ago