IT has been quite long, ever since the last time i login.
I've tried to focus on my studies, but still distracted by what's so called relationships.
The more i try to heal, try to give chances for myself..
the worse i get.
Close friends of mine kept telling me about stories of guys turning gay, giving me example such as Leslie Cheung, warning me " Hey vincent, please try noy to be like them"
LOL... Although the disappointment within me seems to be a bottomless hole, but i'm clear of i'm not a girl's soul born in guy's body.
Perhaps people change as age grows, perhaps this world has changed to something more about individualistic and materialistic, perhaps we are exposed to more people as age grows...
or perhaps, i've been naive all the time, haven't changed at all.
Yes, i'm naive, lacking worldly experience and understanding of what's so called maturity. Isit about full development of characteristic, either mental or physical? Or in other words, it means having reached maximum development?
Most people at my age or older claimed that they are matured, mentally and physically. But why the things they do are still that childish?
Keeping the best and don't want to share, like a child just got a new toy for Christmas and scared his friends will steal it,
or
doing things that will benifits only themselves, a child who tell lies about others so elders would think he/her is a better child or pay more attention on him/her, or take something from other kids and tear them apart, throw them away or claimed as theirs?
If everyone thinks like that, this is a world that is not much different than hell: either u r the Demon soldier, or the poor souls being torn apart. Where would be the sharing that would benifits everyone? If there's a method that ease your life, why don't you want to share with others so their live would be much better?
They keep saying "There's no such thing as fair competition in this society. Either you live happy but have less, or you have alot and feels HAPPY despite what others feel"
Isn't that what is a child thinking when it comes to sweets and toys? If you are matured, why can't you try to use your full developed smart brain to create a society where there's no such thing as "one man's meat is another man's poison'? It's a society, we won't work as individually, but as ONE, ever heard of cooperation?
Naive thinking eh? You don't always have to agree with someone like me. That's the way it always does.
Unknown " Zi lolipopang@" Ferocious
- 15 years, 12 months, 3 days ago