Don't be that bitch.
Don't take advantage of it.

And don't be a bastard.
Don't push your luck.

6 days. Depression.
Unknown "Joy Joy" Tired - 16 years, 7 months, 7 days ago

Why don't you mean what you say?
Why don't you say what you mean?
Why don't you behave the way you feel?
Why don't you feel the way you behave?

What is it with all the lies and betrayal?
What is it with all the inconsistencies?
What is it with all the secrecy?
What is it with all the intolerance?

I tried my best; I did what I could.
The sweat, the tears, the pain, the effort,
I’ve even got the scars to prove it.
But I can’t say the same for you.

So why do I have to bear this,
The consequences of your behaviour?
Why am I being punished
And put through all the torture?

The least you could do
A clarification or a confession,
A reason, a sign or an emotion.
And the truth, from the bottom of your heart.

But you don’t.
So where does that leave me?
And what does that make you?
Unknown "Joy Joy" Tired - 16 years, 7 months, 20 days ago

I Wanna Know
Gabrielle


Holding back what you feel inside
It just ain't good, no, it just ain't right
Communication is the key, if I tell you will you tell me

Tell me how you feel, got to know what's on your mind
Tell me how you feel, 'cos it's no good to keep
Those thoughts locked inside because

I wanna know, I wanna know
Do you feel how I feel
I wanna know, I wanna know

I won't pretend that I know what you're all about
Why don't you share yourself, and you'll leave me in no doubt
Reveal your innerself, cast aside your mask
Show me just who you are
Is it really too much to ask
Tell me how you feel 'cos I want to know
What's on your mind
Tell me how you feel, 'cos it's no good to keep
Those thoughts locked inside

What are you like
I really must know
Emotions run deep
So let them flow
What are you like
I really must know
Tell me

Tell me how you feel
'Cos I want to know
What's on your mind
Tell me how you feel
'Cos it's no good to keep
Those thoughts locked inside

Unknown "Joy Joy" Tired - 16 years, 7 months, 29 days ago

Perhaps of the recent events, the very few little things that happened today seemed to be exceptionally good news. Good enough to lift my spirits and put me in a good mood.

But for how long will it keep me up? For how long will I feel this excitement and this positive energy that I have not felt in the last few months? How soon will the end come? Too soon I fear.

I'm scared that that's all there is to the good things that will happen. I'm terrified of the bleakness I see ahead of me.

Help.
Unknown "Joy Joy" Tired - 16 years, 8 months ago

Confused & Emotional: it's a tough decision to make.
Fickled-minded: how many times must I question myself?
Depressed & Apprehensive: will anything good come out of this?
Afraid & Paranoid: all the what-ifs that run through my head.

What is a girl to do in a situation like this?
Unknown "Joy Joy" Tired - 16 years, 8 months, 1 day ago