what life brings isnt what you always want but if you keep your mind and heart open it might change. to be alone is many things but to know there are ppl there is a wonderful thing.to put aside what you know and learn something new is amazing. for letting go of what hurts is tough but we pick up the peices and our hearts and learn from it. to find the one who loves you for who you are is a chance of luck. to make your own luck can be dangerous.open your self to all posiblities but close them when you know it is to much. take it slow dont go to fast, crashing is the worst part. just loving enough is the key. and if you know what that is please tell me

hellsfire Annoyed - 14 years, 8 months, 17 days ago

The Blackness Began
my heart is frozen. black where it beats.it stopped in time and not sure when.not cold my heart just black with pain.which had once consumed my head has taken my beating heart.was not left alone, was loved enough, what makes it black is not this stuff.i felt a thump, i stop to think has time healed this wound.will i ever feel that beat again, the rush, the love where it all began.not a beat, nor a thump i feel in my chest but heavy and bare.it still feels just not the same with you gone theres only pain.but bare the pain i will for long. until that sounds beats along ,besides yours it will return but untill then it is my pain to indure.
hellsfire Annoyed - 14 years, 8 months, 20 days ago

ly in bed.anger in head.mind a race. need some space.words so strong.silence long.sit apart.we dont belong.heart felt lost.been consumed.by what we did not choose.never ends.problems began.to figure out.we drive apart.contamination spreads so fast.hit the breaks.loose it fast.lost it once.lost it twice.heart beats fast.we pull apart.towards a difference.i just want things to be the same.like before we felt this pain.are hearts beat.pretend no more.scars are covered but not erased.say a joke. like before.pray it works.see my eyes.you guess what i will say.but instead i tell you i love you any way.our troubles ours.not mine not your.the pain it grows.but love is stong. im yours.your mine im where i belong.
hellsfire Annoyed - 14 years, 8 months, 22 days ago

i ly in the dead of darkness. i hear nothing but the cars tires driving across the cold wet pavement.my body is tired.my mind is worse.i can feel my heart beat within me and my limbs feel numb.i feel like i havent slept in days even though i know i have. i cannot eat, i drink even less.the sound of the rain falling comforts me. one drop at a time makes me drift away. it feels like i am already in a dreram world but i am still awake. do i dream?im not to sure. i close my eyes and breathe.i try and relax even tho i know i cant move. my body stops fighting it and lys still. my stomach tosses and turns. i dont feel well. i lick my lips, there so dry. my cheeks hurt, i chewed them to much. back to a sound i know to well. not a sound of peace but quite the opposite. disscomfort and distance. i turn on my side to relieve some pain. it doesnt work. i still feel it all. just a few more days, i tell my self. my brain wont stop racing. the pain wont stop hurting and the rain keeps falling
hellsfire Annoyed - 14 years, 8 months, 23 days ago