Okay.

You guys want to know what's going on?

Here's the story. Here's a rare peek into the real feelings of me.

I'm just like everybody else and, while I may put on a cheerful face most of the time, it slips sometimes. I feel upset, I feel mad, I feel sad. Yeah, I'm not the "eternally cheerful guy" a lot of people expect me to be.

At those times, I wish to be left the fuck alone and not talked to by ANYBODY. I don't want any consolation or any of that.

I'm sure SOME people out there knows what this feels like.

I've been run over practically my whole life. While I may put up with it, I don't stand up to the people because I'm not that kind of guy.

I'm too nice and shit to do it. Sure, you may tease me and antagonize me and shit, but I put up with it.

I thought I had built up the armor for it, but apparently not.

Yeah, this is who I am IRL. Fucking deal with it. If you're a true friend, you'll accept it. If you can't accept it, then you shouldn't be my fucking friend because I can't be friends with anybody who doesn't accept who I am.

This is news to most, if not all, of you.

Yeah, I keep my feelings hidden and listen to others because, as I said, I'm the nice and caring person. When I'm like this, just leave me the fuck alone and I'll fucking talk when I'm ready. Don't try to force me to talk or try to console me as that will just make me even madder and more upset.

I know people say not to bottle shit up and stuff, but I prefer to. It may do more harm than good, but I don't give a fuck. I am who I am. I said earlier, FUCKING DEAL WITH IT!

If you don't like it, fuck off.

Yes, I know I'm an asshole during these times, but don't try to reason with me, k? I'll just be more of an asshole. I don't give a fuck at these times if you're trying to be nice and such to me.

The not-so-hidden message in this tale is LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE WHEN I ASK. I listen to other peoples' troubles and complaints. Yes, I know I say I like to listen and I do, but not all the time. Like at these times.

AGAIN, FOR YOU GUYS WHO CAN'T GET ANYTHING THROUGH YOUR THICK SKULLS: LEAVE. ME. THE. FUCK. ALONE.

Can't get much simpler than that. If you can't get THAT, I give up on you.

There's the rant. There's the story. I know some people out there are wondering what the fuck happened to me. This is it.

P.S. This tale may sound all emo and shit, but I don't give a fuck. It is my rant and I'll make it sound as I want to. To repeat what I said earlier, if you don't like it, fuck off.

And I know after I post this, I'll get a shitload of stuff saying something along the lines of "Oh. I didn't know." And "I'm so sorry!"

I don't want any of that shit. If anybody posts it, I will remove it.

Also, I don't care if I get banned. Ban me, fine. Sure, I have friends on here, but most of them I have on facebook and/or MSN. Even a few on my cell. If you don't want to be friends with me on facebook after this, then delete me. I don't give a fuck.

This may sound "childish" and "selfish" and "immature". Again, I don't give a flying fuck. I reiterate, I am who I am. Deal the fuck with it.

I don't expect people to feel sorry for me and I'm not being an attention whore or trying to get pity points. I know by saying this, people will say I am, but I. Am. Not.

End of Rant.
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