Why me.....

I lay there against the cold tile
shivering waiting
why am I here
what did I do to deserve your sick experiment
I am alone

She is on the other side
watching, waiting
she is my love
my soul, my heat
I need her

Every time my heart beats
I hear her name
see her face

Every time my heart slows
almost stopping, almost setting me free
I hear her warm loving voice

I remember her touch,
her kiss, her love

only memories now

My heart is her puppet
she tugs at the strings
toying with me

I huddle in the corner
weeping, crying
she isn't mine anymore

Their is another
I can't see
but I know


why me.....
why me.....


Chris Loyal - 14 years, 8 months, 24 days ago

Angel

As I sit here thinking about you
like always
your home
I'm stuck in class
Oh, how I want to crawl into bed with you
hold you close
comfort you
you are my angel

You always know what to do
What to say
No mater what
you make me smile

I retreat to my mind
My heaven, my home
You there, like always
Waiting for me
You smile when I walk in

Chris Loyal - 14 years, 9 months, 15 days ago

Cant get you off my mind

You invade my mind
I think of you
I am helpless

I don't know why
or how
you do

I can wait
I can try

I feel empty
Cant breath

I all I can do is stare
Cant get you off my mind

It blows my mind
You have my heart
I don't know why

You invade my dreams

Cant see you
Just want to die

I try to fill the void
To no success

God look at me I'm a mess
I have fallen hard
All I can do is hope
It doesn't look good
It never does

Nice guys finish last
They always do
Trust me

Chris Loyal - 14 years, 9 months, 15 days ago

I hope you're happy

I see you with him
Talking, Laughing
I know you
The real you
What you need
What you want

I see him
I know its not going to last
I hope that I am wrong
I hope you're happy
I just have a feeling
Its not going to last

I see through him
I see no good
He doesn't know the real you
I know why you don't tell him
Your different
I hope if you tell him
He understands

When you in love
Nothing matters

I hope you're happy
With him

Chris Loyal - 14 years, 9 months, 15 days ago