The days turned into cold episodes of a long blank film of the repeating manner that
happens every moment, just a period of repedtiveness that feeling as i did the morning
before, the routine almost becoming an art that takes place during my actions.
Taking the bag of regret and sorrow that it fills me with, replacing the breath of life
with something more sinister that destroys my body in very small fractions.
Filling the object with the unfullfilling pieces of my very being as i close the container.
Taking the essance of light; igniting the container to show to me the red glow that
fogs my thoughts into a nonsencical tangent of nothingness, the fake euphoric
laughs brings me to tears knowing this feeling will not last, not being lulled
into this state for eternity, infuriates me knowing that soon everyone elses
reality will soon plow into my mind bringing me back to the person im tring to get
away from, the confused state bringing me to my knees will always shadow me
of the person im not. The frail body that kneels onto the wet earth; lowered head pondering
about all the fear that owns me inside the insecurities that plauge me tear me alive feeling my
entire body break down unable to escape my own prison of torment.
The blistering cold feeling of unhappiness and doubt inflicts
emmence pain in my heart knowing that i am more then demoting myself to nothing.

-Thank You
RawrRawrMonster "Foxy Monster" Playful - 15 years, 2 months, 4 days ago

this mind that i try to escape from follows me through the good and bad
knowing the outcome of every decision that my heart wants
but it is shielded behind thoughts beyond emotions
shielding me from the truth
blinded
reaching and feeling my way around my mind hearing the words that people say in an odd blur
of mutters and mumbles
that surround my head but my mind disguises them as fear. . .
the fear of actually seeing what i know i am

the light mimicing the dark confusing
what is the truth and what is false
unable to differienciate
between the two
and unknown to me how do actually know who i am
blinded

the mirrored image that glares back at me
knows the burning truth that i am not alone
feeling that way by the light that consumes me
into darkness the light blinds me from what i am ment to see

the death defying dark that laughs at danger
and mocks the light hides me from the brightness
also unable to see, tring to feel the light and dark
to work together in that harmony, that balance
that my body searches for

-Thank You
RawrRawrMonster "Foxy Monster" Playful - 15 years, 2 months, 4 days ago

I'm insane, in need of light!
The dark is bitter and full of fright!
Shadows pour in, in dead of night!
I’m consumed and she was right!!!
I’m deranged, I need a savior,
There’s so many like different like different flavors
What is wrong and what is right?
What’s the difference from dark and light?
I don’t know and I can’t see
From the darkness that is blinding me!
I’m demented, yes its true
Its just that the demon I get is from you
The Devil it wants me
The Devil it needs me
The Devil sees me
With the darkness it feeds me
It fuels the night; shuts the bright
Dark embraces me; without a fight
I don’t have the might
Of knowing what’s right
I am the dark
I am the knight
It’s the Devil that takes me under
Away from the Angel that wants me over
I’m too crazy to talk to myself
My mind is dust sitting on a shelf
I’m too crazy to talk to myself
I’m too crazy to talk to myself
I am sane in need of dark
The Light burns like a bite from a shark
Into the dark I must embark
Seeing the date that is set where the light is the brightest
Where my heart will clench at its tightest
I will be finished and the deed will be done
The war that begins will continue with my son
With a back straight he will stand tall
One that well rise watching many that will fall

-Thank You
RawrRawrMonster "Foxy Monster" Playful - 15 years, 2 months, 4 days ago