this is the beginning to my book

ITS ABOUT MY OWN LIFE EXPERIENCES
ALMOST AN

AUTOBIOGRAPHY

ENJOY........
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CHAPTER ONE

NAKED AND CONFUSED...



naked and confused

Bang! Consciousness hit him like a shotgun blast.There was no slow wake.There was no slight elev8ion to his eyes.Just the loud uninterupting sounds of the city.The horns of miscelaneous cars and trucks,the sounds of hundreds of thousands of footsteps,the constant chirping of the makers of those busy footsteps and the birds.
The smells so complex filling his lungs like sludge of a slowly decaying city.Pizza,car exaust,people,oh so many people,pheromones,fear,and so many others he could not name,but he did recognize the sweet smell of trees.The scents of aged cement and asphault was all too sicking mixed with the smog and rust that drifted in his nostrils.His stomach was empty,but he threw up anyway.The empty dry heaves that convulsed his body seem to be in synch with the city breathing.
As he was vomiting he couldnt help but realized he never threw up this way before.Where was his nose,why couldnt he see sharper.Everything was so blurry,as he finished lurching and rolled on his back again the way he awoke so explosively.He tried to rub his eyes clear,but realized something was horribly wrong with his hands.He finished rubbing his eyes,and cringed at what he saw in his clear perfect vision.He had long slender arms and hands with narrow fingers and thumbs,with slight hair covering.He poked himself in the eyes trying to wipe his tears away.He never had thumbs before,and didnt know what to do.He felt his flattened smoother face with his newly bore hands,and collapsed into a ball.An unfamiliar ball.His legs felt strangely bent,and uncomfortable.
"What is this?",he thought to himself in a tone mixed of screaming and crying.
"What happened to me?"
"How did I get here?"
"Where am I?"
"Who has done this to me?"
As tears fall down his face,he tried to maneuver his limbs and gain balance to stand,and it felt all too wrong.His legs felt shorter and longer at the same time,and tried taking a few steps toward running water that he could hear and smell in the near distance.He felt all wrong like this body wasnt his,and he wondered where his tail had went.Everything was uneven till he wobbled to a tree to catch himself from falling.His limbs walked up the tree till he gained balance on his hind legs,and wondered why it felt comforting to stand this way.His feet were longer and his legs only bent once.
"What happened to my body?"
"Where is my pack?"

(to be continued)
Mattrick B8man "Dr. Satan" Ferocious - 16 years, 2 months, 26 days ago

GOD I LOVE BLOGGING

ITS MY OWN THERAPY
NO DOCTORS NEEDED AND TOTALLY FREE

ITS SURE AS HELL BEATS WRITING IN MY NOTEBOOK AND THROWING
IT AT PEOPLE

LMAO
Mattrick B8man "Dr. Satan" Ferocious - 16 years, 2 months, 27 days ago

How To Take A Life :

First I say we need to walk
She walks I say sit down it's just to talk
She smiles viciously back at me
I stare emotionless completely
Some sort of forest to her right
I hide whats left and I say goodnight
Between the trunks of trees she lays
I begin to wonder whos to blame

CHORUS:
Where did it go wrong, how will it end
Somewhere alone in the darkness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I not had to take your life

I let her know that I know best
Cause after all I do know best
Slip past her defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down the tools of what is wrong
The things I've be hiding all along
And pray to God no ones hears her
And pray to God he hears me

CHORUS:
Where did it go wrong,how will it end
Somewhere alone in the darkness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I not had to take your life


As she begins to raise her voice
I silence hers and grant her one last choice
Run until you hit the road
Or lay like the ones ive chased and followed
She will do one of two things
She will admit to everything
Or she'll say im not the one to blame
And I begin to wonder whos the game

CHORUS:
Where did it go wrong, how will it end
Somewhere along in the darkness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I not had to take your life

CHORUS:
Where did it go wrong,how will it end
Somewhere alone in the darkness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I not had to take your life
Had to take your life
had to take your life
Mattrick B8man "Dr. Satan" Ferocious - 16 years, 2 months, 27 days ago

could she be the one ive been fantasizing my whole life
out of fucking now where
she draws my attention
like no one has before
she likes to think she knows me
i like to think
she knows me as much as possible
ive shown her my cards on the table
ive her the 8s up my sleeve
she left a mark that i hope never heals
as a reminder of how we first met
after work
after stressed
touched by a hug so hopefully blessed
parts of her n8s me for what i did to her
but honestly i dont remember
except for her smile and the way she is so foward
so as captain barbosa
i board her
and she isnt afraid to set sail on her words
but in person may be a different story


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GOD FUCKING DAMN ME
WHY MUST I STRUGGLE SO MUCH FOR LOVE WHEN IVE NEVER EXPERIENCED IT

ITS JUST A FUCKING DREAM

NO ONE WILL EVER LOVE A LUNA-TIC LIKE ME

LOVE IS AN ILLUSION

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Mattrick B8man "Dr. Satan" Ferocious - 16 years, 2 months, 28 days ago

im so terarded lol
ive been listening to my playlist over and over
god i love my music tastes
Mattrick B8man "Dr. Satan" Ferocious - 16 years, 2 months, 28 days ago