So, Today was a rough day. 15 minutes late for work, performing near-miracle feats while at work, and damn tired.

Although after work was amazing. Mistress got her eyebrow done at teh same place I got my nipples done. We left my aunt's house (she went visiting the folks closest to me for the evening while I was working) and when we got home, She unveiled Her 'suprise' to me - She got Her nipples done!!!!!!

*OMG Hottness!*

*Cannot take my eyes off of Her*
Craig St Onge "Kitten2be {MP}" Adored - 16 years, 3 months, 4 days ago

I am in such a weird place today. Thursday night, after the ball, Mistress put a permanent collar around my neck. This made me tear up, and showed that I am truly being cared for,watched over and truly loved in a matter like no other. I look over the now almost-empty lobby, and shiver knowing Mistress and Sir are heading to bed for a few hours, Taga is asleep in my room, and even trying to powernap for an hour would destroy what little energy i have. I know what I must do - stay up another night. And this may make me a little more irritable, but nothing overly crazy psycho.
In other news, the collar is engraved with "Pirate's craig 7/3/08" I saw the collar and i just about lost my control over crying, it was that intense.
That is all I can think of for this moment...Talk laters folks...
Craig St Onge "Kitten2be {MP}" Adored - 16 years, 4 months, 16 days ago

Alright,just to really begin to understand, let me start from last night, at 3am.
I got on the phone with Mistress, and the first thing that occurred to me was we would be seeing each other before that day was over. Now, this caused massive butterflies in my stomach to appear, and flutter about. Idid finish the call, and the butterflies increased. I immediately started thinking the negatives, and slowly thought away from everything that was said...I was feeling the pressure to be everything i said i was. Low and behold, the arrival time appears, and they arrive. first was the hug...I almost dropped to my knees right there, in the parking lot. next was the hug with Dan...*purr*. Finally,we went to attend a lunch with con staff. Although it was not to be, we still stayed in Portland for a little while, before making our way down to Biddeford. This is where the most amazing things happened.First, is that i feel asleep, with both Mistress and Sir in the bed with me. For those that are not in the know, I am not a pleasant person around people i don't trust. trusting enough to sleep is a long process, but both of them put me at ease.
Now, for dinner we went to meet up with some more con folk, and relaxed, just joking and talking some more. After dinner, we returned to the apartment, where a session took place....it is 1.03am, I am still returning from subspace and my brain still isn't working properly - just thought I would write out my thoughts knowing that my dreams held nothing to the reality...
Gah....im so done right now it isn't funny...my brain is mush.
Craig St Onge "Kitten2be {MP}" Adored - 16 years, 4 months, 18 days ago

I did wrong. I know this, by doing something that Mistress specifically has control over.
Yeah, it needed to be done desperately, but i also know i should have waited for permission to do so.

Now i am very worried. I told Mistress i did it before obtaining permission, and now She is not responding to me at all....
I know She isn't going to leave me, but at the same point I am afraid i did something that will get me in major trouble...

And since I am still babysitting at my aunt's house, I am just shy of a complete wreck...
Craig St Onge "Kitten2be {MP}" Adored - 16 years, 4 months, 23 days ago

I woke up this morning, and felt a few things that are special enough, that i already planned on writing about it. my morning started with waking up from a deep sleep, and being relaxed. That in and of itself is a big deal with me - whatever caused that needs to happen again. Now, this is then followed by looking over at the laptop, and seeing a message that warmed me to my core - i will not share the message since it is personal, but know that i smiled, blushed slightly, and was happy. Talking with Mistress for a little while, my mood went higher and higher into happiness, and i have seriously started to bounce around, being very happy, knowing that i am at a place that makes me happy. Maybe it happened to quick, maybe not. But to me it feels right, and that is what is important. i am looking at my previous post, and knowing that my abandonment issues will pop up every so often, but as long as i remember what i was told, i know i will be okay.

In other, but related, news - Mistress has been looking for collars for me. I am enthusiastic, and so bouncy about it. I have not talked with Dan since that night, but i passed His test.

Now to come up with something innately special for Mistress and Dan for Portcon.
Craig St Onge "Kitten2be {MP}" Adored - 16 years, 5 months, 8 days ago